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Thursday, December 29, 2011

Just another post

Seriously, i hate blogging through my phone if there are many photos.. Because i cannot put
Photo
Caption
Photo
Caption....

N that sucks...
Guess ill just write n post single photos...instead of berlambak photos n me get frustrated...

One of the senior bought this very very old time memory sweet..

It used to be so big and nice cz it kinda melts slowly in ur mouth.. Instead of letting it melt (too slow n taste not strong enough), i bite on all to get the taste of it.. Haha

Wish the taste never changed

Sunday, December 25, 2011

Promoted

I'm promoted to be a senior.
It means more responsibility, more pay, more sleepless nights... 😭

I went home early on Friday because head was super aching.. Went out for dinner and came home with extra headache... Saw there was a wall post from senior congratulating me and i was like uh...??? Why??? ❔❔❔❔

Was waiting for her reply n slept off

At 1.30am, bf msg me 'congrats' n i was like okie lar, senior replied d, immediately i know wad was going then...

Msg my senior until 2 almost 3...

Lifez not gonna be easy anymore..

God, thank you so much for the guidance n support u have given me all this time.. Thank you for helping me in my journey called LIFE.. U have never failed me for the past 24 years...

U gave me good parent, siblings that fight n get back together after a fight.. A bf that loves me ( but he's a pig) n i love him too.. Friends who never fail me when i need them.. Soon to be in-laws that are great (have i ever mention that my mum-in-laws cooking is awesome??n i get lunch n dinner every sundays)... Thank you for everything...

I know that you made sure the car color was white although i wanted silver.. U made me make a big fuss and then sumone comes n say, hey that color is meant for you.. Its like u have planed everything n then the day to take my car, u made sure bf is not around so that u choose the good day to get the car.. Thank you...

No amount of time me saying thank you will be enough for me to show how grateful i am to u..

Im lucky!!! N I'm proud to be my parents daughter!!!

2011
- a job
- high pay
- bonus
- iPhone
- car
- promotion
- good health

God, for 2012 my 1st wish is to see my grandma start walking on herself and have back her lost confidence.. I wish, u can grant the grandmother wish because that is what my omma's wish is....

2012
- to go to Harbin with my omma
- to go to Melbourne with bf if there is sufficient fund
- higher bonus
- buy a house if god give extra money
- parents good health

I just cant think much.. There4 god, I'm leaving all my plans and wishes in ur hand...grant me all... Lap u goody godly god

Sunday, December 18, 2011

Omma's birthday

Last sunday was my mummy's birthday..

Happy birthday omma!!!!!!!!

Hope wadever u wish cum true
but dun ask lebih2 ar....

Took omma to chef & brew
Spent RM311 for dinner for 8 person
Big bomb for decembers expenditure

My new phone

So so so....my 1st post from the iPhone.... I've got the new iPhone 4s.. Nothing in particular to brag abt because its just like the old iPhone 4... N its just more heavier than my old phone..

Was just telling my bf's sister, 'its only precious as long as the phone doesn't drop, once drop then its just like any other phone..

Me n bf decided to get the phone together.. Me generally will prefer the samsung galaxy SII but bf said no.. We are getting the iPhone.. Expenditure just shoot up for this month cz I'm getting myself a car tooooooo....

Im seriously praying for miracle now bcz next years expenditure is just NUTS.

I need miracle to happen.....

Work sucks....

To be fair work doesn't suck, the overloaded task sucks.... How to get promoted in this shyt situation uh???

IPhone battery dies FAST.... What the +{{}#%^**+~||>*

Christmas is next week.. Will my wish come true??

Going to in laws place to have lunch in a while... Byessss

Saturday, December 3, 2011

busy busy busy

I'm now super busy....
I'm working 7 days a week...
Either doing my real job or being a maid....

But now.. the day my senior left, I'm now doing my real job 7 days a week..
I may seem to be exaggerating my situation.. but trust me..
My senior's clients are really really sibeh BIG...
Too many Global clients and I really really am not able to do it...

I used to be able to manage my time... and NO MORE...
I can't..
I'm suffering..
I'm dead...
I'm thinking to kill myself... but I'm never able to bring myself to do it..
I don't wanna be a ghost and I think living is definitely better than dying... SUICIDE to be exact...
No suicide... no killing.. no dying unless god takes me...

I will survive.. I WILL SURVIVE...

Mother in law cooks every Sunday...
So every Sunday I get Indian food...

Gonna sambung kerja now...
Nites..

Sunday, November 13, 2011

Its ma Birthday...

After 24 years.. I am celebrating with ma new family.. (I'm not married yet if thats what you are wondering)
Okie, that's because bf's father did ask if they could take me out for dinner on my birthday and my family had no plans for me since younger sisters birthday is on the 14th and we always celebrate together..


My cake from bf's family

Ma bf wished me sharp 12.. 6 years together and we have only celebrated my birthday together (at 12 midnight) once (my 21st birthday).  All this years (1st 3 years was not allowed to go out so late) he was out with his cousins (co-incidently always d day b4 my birthday)(not complaining)..

Senior got married on my birthday... weeeeee...
Got up early in the morning and got dressed up (hate that process) but still did it..
Bf called and asked if I wanted him to send me to the Church (senior wedding was there)...

Me cleverly didn't bring the map and went rounding rounding at last found the place..
I was just in time for the part where they slip in the ring and "you may kiss the bride"...

Went for 9 course lunch.. 6 ppl in 1 table (supposedly 10 ppl,all ffk).. nicey nicey....
Bf fetched me after tat and went over to his hse... They bought me a cake....



Ain't they sweet????
But carrot cake???
Duh i don't like...
 
But its okie since new family loves eating carrot cake...
They are kind enough to finish it for me..
 
Oh yeah did i forget to tell that mum inlaw actually wanted to do the american choc which bf said tak jadi...
but the heart counts.. so THANK YOU...!!!!
 
** I duno how tak jadi because I still brought back the choc sliced cake and ma family finished it..
 
I had a happy birthday.... =)

Tuesday, November 1, 2011

Lamey me

I really don't feel like continuing on the 2nd part of Deepavali because I find it so BORING...

How boring can it be??

I left it at went back to my hse and got purple packets from aunty and dad...
And when I went back to his house, guest started coming.. (did I mention this already??)
Nope...  I didnt..
At that point of time, I wish the ground could swallow me (feel like i've said abt this ady lar) (dejavu???)

Oh yeah, looked back and realise that I did write about this...
See, thats why I said I don't wanan continue..
Neway, conclusion is.. I enjoyed my Deepavali in both sides..
Mine and Bf's...

I'm a little scared of getting married lar...
Cz then many things will be different...

Been watcing many ghost movies.. I really have no idea whats wrong with my sis, bro n bf...
Last friday, bf called and ask me to go n fetch him saying that movie starting at 9.30pm...
Left office and immediately went over to his place.  Reached there and he said my brother called him and said they are going to watcha  movie together.
Fine. HELLO, who is the sister here?? Why I don't know anything about this?

Fetched bf, went to my house, all 6 of us went for dinner.
OH YEAH.. I was super hugnry that day ( story in another post)
my brain and soul was all drained out.

At first all didn't want to tell me what movie we were watching.
Just in time, sis had to ask, "the ghost movie scary or not?"...
bf and brother had to do that big reaction "why lar why..."
Susi thought I knew what movie we were watching.
Duh... Ghost movie immediately told them I don't wanna watch, but they insist because Im the driver..
%^&*$%^&*$%

How do you like it.. WHO IS THE SISTER HERE????
Now I think bf because the brother and I became the Sister in law lar...
Mati aku.. Neway, thats good, at least we are all being treated like a family and no discrimination...

but that movie was not scary lar.. called HONG KONG GHOST MOVIE..
I'm feeling sleepy while typing this.. Told ya Im a boring person.

Byes...

Thursday, October 27, 2011

Dave's Cafe & Bistro & Deepavali Part 1

Check this & this out.. everything there looks yummy yummy

My senior is leaving..
The 1 who stood up for herself..
The 1 who who does things when she think is right...

So as a good junior to her, me and Jeremy (her son(literally)) decided that we should take her to somewhere good..
Somewhere like DAVE's... It's a non-halal place..
But the food ther is just so superb...
Especailly my Cream Carbonara Bacon & Mushroom
Oh my yummy yummy angel hair creamy carbonara bacon & mushroom
Anything that has carbonara is the best.. ADD cheese powder.. sumore yummy....
OMG.. Im craving for it d...

Deepavali was good...
Got up at 7 in the morning.. had prayers at home..
Then went to bf's house...
OMG OMG...
trust me, I wish the ground can swallow me when his relatives started coming in.. flowing in like water..

I had to be the good girl, be at my best... Not like I'm being a hypocrite, just that not as crazy as if it's my hse..
No shouting and no screaming..

I remember how my hse used to have open house too...
Yesterday was nothing compared to my hse open hse (we stoped when grandma passed away)

They had less than 50 ppl.. where else if it was my hse, my dad's friends, my mums side (60 ++ ppls) then my aunt's frens and all... OMG... that like more that 100++ ppls and just imagine we never had maids, there4 we are the maids... Mum cooks, we wash, serve drink made sure there was enough food on the table, then made sure enough drink in the container, wash all the plates when some1 finish eating..
DUH...!!!!

The worst part will be when we gotta clean up...

Okie enough of my hse open when we are not gonna do that anymore until moment comes where my dad gets a little crazy and say, "LETS DO IT"....

Went over to bf's hse around 11am...
His mum gave me ANGPAU...!!!! yeah.. not a small amount... (same par with bf i guess)..
Had breakfast with them..mother in law was being nice...
Good start.. and bf had to dig a little bcz the last time i went to thie hse for Deepavali was 6 years back where our relationship was no accepted yet... But no drama ler.. (lucky)..

Now thinking back, worth all the wait because our relationship now is good, I even helped to do a little kitchen (plucking leave) stuffs..

Then went home to my hse for a short time because stomach toooo sakit.. (no idea what I ate).. We were on time.. aunty came over to my place and was giving out purple packets too.... So did my dad..

** Part 2 will be continued.. (no photo's taken)

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

Paranomal Activity 3 (nth about it)

I am one person who hates watching horror movie..
Hate it when ghost scares me..

I believe there is ghost on earth, but we just cant see them because our HIJAB  (3rd eye) is not open (I watched Al-Hijab too).

Everytime I know that the ghost MIGHT come out, I'll just close my eye..
Call me scardy cat.. YES I AM..

I notice that I hate moving or going to new place to stay..
Just like when I go to my bf's place, I hate the darknest there..

I never like new place that is dark..

And just imagine this girl played BlOODY MARY (one of my post title) with the camera guy in the toilet...
Got scratched and things were moving and her hair got pulled upwards..
Jeremy had to be an ass.. was working, and he came beside my ear n whispered bloody mary..
Need a smack on his ass..

So we went early to the cinema, me, bf, sis n bro (Duh hate it that I had to pay for the movie)..
Then we bought popcorns & drinks...



It cost me RM14.90 each.. We got the Cars & The Ghostly human bone cup with a brain on top of it...
Oh yeah, cars' had the roda (tyre) thingy too for the cup...
Damn cute

** No idea what title to put.. So simply main letak nie

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

Bloody Mary

Duh.. The 1st thing when I knew what bloody mary was.. I puked.

I am 1 person who rarely drink because I hate the taste of alcohol.
Tried Tiger, Heineken, Carlsberg.. NO... I don't like the taste neither does my body likes it because if I ever drink any of those, my arm will have rashed (itchy) and bones will be paining, therefore I stoped beer..

Hate shandy..

Then tried Mojito, it taste like antibiotik (the pink liquid 1)

Then there was this 1 day, my bf, me, both my sis n bro went to this bar in Menjalara (some German bar)..
There my bf dared my brother to drink Tequila in 1 shot and not puke (cz my bro got problem with beers too)..

My brother SURVIVED.. no puking, no headache, went home in 1 piece.. (yeah, 1 small glass is nth)
and I ordered this BLOODY MARY....

It seriously was a BLOODY mary because it was TOMATO JUICE...
I eat tomatoes but never liked the thick juice of it.. I liked off the salt but not the juice because it was so YUCKY.... eeeeewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww..

The 1st thing I thought was "how I wish Jeremy was here".. because he loves tomato juice and he even put salt n pepper in it.. (weirdo..!!! just like me (tosai with rasam, oats with milo/rasam))..

That shall be my 1st & last time ordering bloody mary.
eeeeeeewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww...

I wanna marry you...!!!!!!! =)

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

Tong Pak Fu Dessert @ Sunway Giza

My senior was asked to go to this website and since then she kept askign us when are we going (that was last week) and we decided to go on Tuesday where she will be back after her holiday.

She was very exicted.. Im not a dessert person but agreed since she is leavign soon and this might be out last outing (never had 1 aneway)..

So yesterday, without having any high hope (because Jeremy said that the other time he went and the dessert that he choosed wasn't nice) about the place, we went with a mind to just choose any that looks nice..

We had Mango Snow Ice.. Mango Grass Jelly thingy.. Milk Snow Ice, Durian Snow Ice, Tau Hwa Mango & Choco Lava..




Milk Snow Ice


Mango Tau Hwa

Mango Snow Ice


Grass Jelly mango


Chocolate Lave with Vanilla ice-cream

Glutinous rice ball with sesame & peanut Not bad...


This was the HIGHLIGHT Durian Snow Ice... Yums to the max..


We all ordered 1 each but ended up sharign all our food.. My choco Lava was nice, but to chocky taste.. I would give it a 8/10.. Durian is 10/10... that is how nice the Durian Snow Ice was...

Will definetly go back because it was tooo yummy... after having 6 different desert, our bill was RM67++ and senior's card had only left with 1 empty space to collect the sticker to redeem a free desert, Jeremy wanted to try the glutinous rice ball and was battling eyelash(no idea if he really did that cz all we saw was his ass) with the guy at the cashier to add that RM4++ to our existing RM67++ and give us another sticker which means we will have a free dessert which he successfuly got it and we enjoyed the FREE DURIAN SNOW ICE..That was how yummy it was and we all finished it to the very last bit..

Enjoyed the night..

Edited by senior on her Iphone...
Clock wise from up right TsYin with LCLee, Me with my Choco Lava, Shal & Me, Lclee with Jeremy (center), Me with AFYP...


Tuesday, September 13, 2011

I fail

I fail big time when I cant let go of the past..
I fail..
Till now I'm a failure of my own past..

!@#$%^!@#$%^&*(!@#$%^&*(

WhatEVER...

I hope time will heal my past and I can really forget about it...
Sometimes I feel like its a joke..
Sometimes it hurts me so much..

Can I at least forget that soemthing and really keep that thing out of my mind??
Can I??

I'm on leave for 1 whole NEXT week...
Happy...
Going for holiday with my sweetie...
Oowowwwwhhhhh
cant wait for it...

Still in the office, no idea what else to talk about..

Should really start back my food thingy cz my blog is dead currently.. going to die soon I guess....
nites

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

Shimino

Oh my my....

Loving Shimino now...
That was my HotDog Crepe on Sunday..
Today I had the Banana with Chocolate cake crepe...
Jeremy and SHal loved it tooooo and I only made sure they took 1 bite and NO MORE...

One Utama's Shimino got 20% discount until 4 September 2011 because they just re-opened Jusco...

On Friday when I left the office (I have to passby the old Jusco supermarket everyday to get to my car) Jusco was still there and when I came back on Monday...
Dang....!!!! Jusco shifted all the way to the end..
It's bigger now...
Big and bigger...
Shimino Shimino....
Love love...
wanna eat sumore....
But I made sure my crepes got no CREAM...
I hate cream.. Thats y I hardly eat cake...
No like no like...
Never liked cream...

arrrggghhhhhhhh my craving for Shimoni is at the top level of all my other cravings..
Steamboat down...
Nando's down...
Subway down...

Meaning wich my bf is gonna hate Shimino toooooo
BCause every food that I love, my bf HATE,,,
GREAT...

We are 2 worlds apart...
But we love each other so much.. HOW CAN THAT BE???
No idea how 6 years just gone by....
another 6 months and it will be 7th year....
OMG.... can I get married soon???
No kids please... too early to think abt that...
But I've to get all my fats BURNED be4 that...
HOW to do that when I'm staying in MALAYSIA, KUALA LUMPUR???
DIE....
it's 6.32... I'm siting in the office..
There so much to do, and I promised myself to at least write a post every month..
Dun wanna let my blog go dead..

Waiting for the iphone to come into my hand so that I can oways randomly post sumthing instead of nothing...
Back to work.. bb

Monday, August 1, 2011

In-Laws..

Are In-laws meant to be In-laws or family??

I'm liking the idea of having in-laws but hate te idea of separating from my family..
Having new family will be good, but the idea of not being myself MYSELF when I am with them is scaring me..

I can't be doign all the nonsense I do at home with my family...
Like singing in the toilet...
Screaming when I need something..
Or just showing face when I'm not happy about something..

I know of 2 family mamber who will read this post...
So please don't feel offended because I don't mean that you ppl are not my family, but it takes time for me to really get into the WE ARE CLOSE FAMILY thingy..

I know there are many thigns that I really do not fit into your lifestyle, like puting make up..
Damn.. How I hate myself for not being a good person when it comes to this kinda little things..

And thank you so much for treating me SOOOOOO goood....
I really appreciate the bonding we are having now...

I just have to pray that I can control myself when I wanna do crazy things..
Let time play it's part and I'm thankful that things are falling into place...

Thank You dad, mum n sis in-law...
I feel at home... =)

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

My Grandma...

Recap of what has happened...

January Grandma was knocked by a car..
Her knee cap was dislocated, doctor operated that knee and did some miracle to it..
She had 4 rib bones that was fractured but with gods grace, her ribs are in perfect shape now..
She was is a good mood to go home after operation and god decided to test all of us (Her children, grandchildren) to see how we react to her condition..
Then came the urine infaction..
After that she was transfer from 1 house to another house.. Thats how terible my grandmum's situation was..

NOW...
Miracle happens..
My mum decided to tell grandmum that we will go to a GOOD physio..
Yeah.. Not that my mum wanted to wait for 6 months but unforseen circumstances..
We decided not to give up on her because when we were a kid, grandmum did not give up on our stuborness..

Grandmum hates pain.. But she have to go through it..
We were lucky enough to go for the physio..
The doctor there said she was almost getting into the "never gonna move" condition..
Doctor said have to go every 2 days, because with her condition, they can't afford to ask her to come every 1 week once because her brain is slow and she will forget abt what they have thought her after 1 week..

Tomorrow is gonna be the 6th time..
The 1st day we went was last last Saturday..
I took grandma there.. When the physiotherapist ("P") was massaging her, she kept saying pain pain...
They told her to bear the pain a little because her muscles are not soft anymore..

She said, "it's too paining, I don't wanna do anymore"...
All I asked her was 1 thing "Do you want to walk??"
She said "YES"....
"Then you have to tahan the pain"..

1 time she was lying down...
4th time she was able to sit up on her own...

(2nd n 3rd time I din't take her)..

Grandma, soon you will be out of hell..
All I want is to see you happy because if you don't care for yourself, no1 else is gonna care for you...
I believe you have seen enough to judge by yourself...

With my grnadma's condition, we still took her all they was to Ipoh to have food...
Just because she is old and paralyzed, it does not give you any chance to push her away from your life..
She deserve much more things that you could ever give..

Grandma made me, n sis cry in the physio centre...
God, seeing grandma sitting up by herself is so good...
Just waiting for her to star walking and puting her head high up instead of just listening to what others say...

Took a vide of grandma's fingers moving and showed her.. She was so happy..
It a way of giving her hope..

video

Grandma have some faith in urself...
Be a strong grandma...

Monday, July 25, 2011

Functions

I hate going for functions..
Especially functions that needs me to dress up, a little make up (I hate to put make up)..

I still remember, My form 6 Prom Night..
I got dressed up... Then my mum applied a little light color's on my face..
I wiped it off on the way to the hotel ballroom.
Yeah.. thats how much I hate make up...

I guess compared to DANCING, I will definitely prefer the make up...
I hate the idae of being forced to dance and I know there will be such situation in near future which I'm so scared that I might just blow up and walk out of the place with my usual unhappy tone "I don't wanna dance and don't force me"...
I hate being forced to do things that i don't like...

When I was a kid.. My uncle (written off from the family tree) forced me to use some other "pavade" dress which I didn't like using.. DANG... I shouted back and from then on I never talked to him..

I'm a bloody stuborn kid.. No is a NO...
But I guess just to please people which I love, I have to learn to at least lower down my temper and just move my ass...
Arrrgggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh thinking about it makes me go CRAZY....
I can't bring myself to do it...
I can't....

Going for dance class and dancing on a dance floor is so different..
In a dance class, no 1 really looks at you.. But on a dance floor, humans does STARE....
Ouchhhh.. hate it...

Monday, July 11, 2011

Have you ever??



Its been so long since I post anything..
That shows that I;ve been so busy with my job..
Oh yeah, I started mapling back and I'm doing a new job now..
It so interested and more challenging..
But my bro said my job now is more easier..

Can't wait to go home and play..
I leave office at sharp 5.30.. no more OT..

Time for lunch.. bb

Thursday, June 2, 2011

Italianese

Italianese.
One word SUCKS.

After workign hard for filing, all the partner did was take us to Italianese to have lunch.
Yucks.
At least pranakan also i'll be more happier, or maybe DAVE. yumm yummmm
The food in both the place is so nice.

Peranakan's fish curry, never forgettign that and Dave's cabonara spagetti..
Will surely take some photo's for my blogs next time.

Was telling my colleage that I used to take photo of foods but stoped because my bf dun like (he's oways hungry and wanna attact the food as soon as it arrives).. my sibling who got so irritated cz i'm always tryign to get the best angle with my bodoh phone..

Soon lar, soon.. I'm gettign the new Iphone..
The resolution shure good and i can blog dengan segera..

I'm very very busy, but decided to spend some time writing a post.
Can't be leavign my blog empty without writign some nonsence..

Office is very quiet.. the guy who sits beside me is gone for a better offer
used to talk alot and he as usual (GUYS) never wanna keep things, will always borrow my things..

back to work.. adios..

Sunday, May 29, 2011

Love love love

Life been great.
Life been good.
I'm happy that after 6 years of my relationship, everything is in it's place.
I didn't bother to think more tha t what i want and what I could do.
So now, my good and bad karma falls down at it's place and thing are going smoothly.

May 8th was mothers day.
Knowing my mum, she will not want us to buy anything bcz she'll got all that she wants.
And i know the 1 thing that she want's so badly now (her mum/ my grandma to get up and do what she normally does), i cant give her.
So we just took her out for dinner.
In the afternoon went over to my bf's hse for lunch.
The best part was bf was not at home when I went over..

Good start for becoming in-laws..
Dad said 1 thing to bf, "the day you marry my daughter, you become a son".
Haha, who cares about the word in-law...

The idea of getting married, scares me now..


Since mothers day is gone,
Soon enough, fathers day will come..
Dad's still vegetarian, so we will have to crack our head to find for a restaurant that serve's good vegetarian food.

Works been crazy, but i told myself that i'll never work overtime after April.
Work can wait.

Trying to bring myself to exercise everyday which i fail, because i'm too lazy..
3 times a week is just good enough.

I'm so into korean drama's till dad had to say "whats with you and korean drama's?? do you know your bf is so good, i like him so much, don't find a korean guy"..
WHAT on earth/??? haha.. I know dad loves to joke.. neway im happy that all my family likes my bf.. We are comfortable with each other. no hypocrisy.

Friday, May 6, 2011

1st Filing..

My 1st filing was MADNESS...
For a 1st timer, it's seriously mad..
I was basically doing everything..
Can't blame, i was a fast leaner...
Jsut like Shal, she had to handle MORE that me..
She was a VT here, so she knew how and what to do..
Not me..

Although I hate it that i had to do so much,
But I also learned alot..
Not I'm dealing straight with the manager..
Not like I'm gonna get promoted anytime soon..
But the fact that they trust me this much...
Good lar..

But here I'm thinking if this is what i reallyw ant..
Stay here for 10 years and do the same thing...
No different..
I decided to work.. get my money.. start my own business..
That will be a better way n choice to earn more to give my family a better future...

Meanwhile, stay here n ENJOY it...

So my 1st senior took me to Nando's last week...
My 2nd senior is taking me to Dave's next monday..
How nice...
I've no idea why do they even have this tradition of bringing juniors for a treat after the filing period ends.
"They said it's a way of thanking us"...
And I'll have to thank them for teaching me with patients..
But i'm not buying them anything.. WHY??
Because if I do so, then every year also i'll have to do it..
Might as well save that money..

Saturday, April 23, 2011

Hell

It's hell week now.
But I still think I can cope with it because I myself is Hell if ever you wanna deal with.

Was at work till 2 in the morning.
Reached home around 2.30 am
Went to sleep at 3 in the morning.
Brain woke me up at 6.30 in the morning.
Body decided to get up at 8.30.
So that means only 6 1/2 hours of sleep.

Got ready and left home at 9.30 am.
Reached office at 10 am.
Sitting in front of the laptop and typing a post now.
Being lame. Sleepy.

Haven't been seeing my bf for the past 5 days.
The longest was 3 weeks in year 2009.
Back to work.

The Pipe 1

Yeah... This story is about the pipe and me.
Somewhere around the beginning of this year.
Went out with Wing and Winnie to Pavilion.
We went to eat Ichiban Boshi.

After finishing my food, drinking so much of water, my bladder was so full.
All I wanted to do was go to the washroom beside and pee and get out of the cubicle.
I'm a fast person when it comes to going to toilet and getting out of it.
Never a slow person like how all the other ladies.

Damn I hate it when I go to toilet that is full of humans, to be exact, I mean GIRLS, LADIES, WOMEN'S.
Hate slow pee(ears).

I always use the squatting cubicles whenever I use public toilets.
So what happened was, I went in, Pulled down my pants and was ssssshhhhhhhhhh...
Suddenly my elbow pushed the pipe handle (the one that you turn left and right to open and close the water tap).
There, the hose was facing up, and the pressure of the water was so strong.
The water went up kissed the ceiling and dropped on me.
If not mistaken, I think the lady who was standing outside of my cubicle also kena.
Damn!!!!
I didn't dare go out.
All I did was offed it immediately, stood up and pull up my pants and kept QUIET.
Dunno wanna say sorry or what.
Because I know the person outside would have scold if I ever said anything.
Kept quiet and buat selamba only.
Let her think that there was a kid playing water in the cubicle.

Haha. Cruel me.
But it wasn't my fault, the cubicle was so small and easy to push the tap handle.
So I waited in the cubicle like 20 mnt's to make sure my cloths were dried up (failed) before exiting the cubicle.
My baju was still a little wet and kinda visible.
But can't be waiting in the cubicle too long also, frens were kinda worried already when I went back.
They said "we were going to call you to ask if you were making bomb in the toilet".
Haha.
I told them the story and all they did was LAUGH at me.
Bad girls.

I was freezing the moment I went back to my seat cz the place we sat was right down the aircond.

Lucky by the time we left, my baju was dried up.
All thanks to the aircond.

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

I Do....

I'm falling in love with you all over again....
Haven't been seeing my bf for the past 3 days...
I know that I won't be seeing him tomorrow and friday either...

I'm toooo busy now...
Yeah yeah.... 10 minutes of typing this don't really count as me being free....
Just felt like writing a post...
A random shit just to keep this thing running....

My blog is no more fun...
Because all i do i work n work....
I don't have time taking photo's of things...

And by the time i on my camera... It's too late...
It's gonna be HELL next week...
Because we will have to start chasing clients to return their tax returns...
Yeah, hate me all you can.. I'm just doing my job..
Not like i wanna do this so much.. but this is what i can do...

Some ppl are just so no co-operative...
Every job has got it's downfal..
And this is mine...PEOPLE.....

i'm so sleepy now....
Wanna go home and terus tido...
I think i should do it...

Nights....

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

water

I WENT HOME LAST NIGHT AROUND 10.30 AND GOT TO KNOW THAT D WATER GUY HAS ALREADY LOCK THE MAIN TAP.. MEANING WHICH,MY MUM FORGOT TO PAY WATER BIL.. DAMN.. HOW CAN I EVER SURVIVE WITHOUT WATER?? I THINK IF THIS WORLD GOT NO CURRENT, I DONT CARE.. BUT HOW CAN I LIVE WITHOUT WATERR?????  I DUN MIND NOT IRONING MY CLOTHS TO GO TO WORK... BUT I MIND NOT BATHING TO WORK...I MIND NOT MAKING CHOCZ IN THE MORNING... I MIND NOT GETING TO WASH MY CLOTHS... I MIND.... LUCKY THEY SAVED ENOUGH... JUST ENOUGH WATER TO BATH... I EVEN THOUGHT OF GETTING UP AT 4 IN THE MORNING TO BATH BECAUSE MY DAD WAS GOING OUT IN THE MORNING, MEANING WHICH HE WILL GET UP IN THE MORNING AND USE UP ALL THE WATER... TRUST ME, MY HOUSE PPL, ESPECIALLY ME CAN BATH N FINISH UP THE TANGKI WATER... BACK TO WORK... BYEZ.... ON ANOTHER NOTE... THIS POST WAS TYPED USING MY HP.. SO DUN BOTHER THINKING Y IS THERE NO PARAGRAPH AND Y IS ALL THE ALPHABETS IN CAPITAL...

Monday, April 18, 2011

What makes you a human?

BLOOD...

The blood that runs in my body makes me a human...

I'm sitting in the office doing what I'm suppsoe to do to make sure my life would be better in future...
Yeah... When i say future, I'm not lookign at 5 years from now...
I'm talking about 29th April...
Because I need to finish all this things and throw it back at client...

Is this what I want???
I guess so....
But i prefer to be a rich mans daughter and never work...
But I know that no matter how rich my parent are..
They would want me to find a job and earn myself...
So theres no point hoping for my parents wealth...
They will never give any of us...
Ca i think they are gonna donate it to others when they die 1 day....
The only thing i hope is they leave so money for the funeral...

Yeah, I told myself that too....
Cz i know how expensive funeral can be...
My grandma's funeral cost 18k...
BLOODY 18k for a funeral....
I don't think when my grandma gave birth to all her children cost her that much...

So, I'm definitely saving fo rmy funeral.. Don't wanna burden any1....

I think I'm a bad Assistant to my deary senior...
I've got 2...
Lets put it A and B....
A is my primary senior and B is 2nd...
All B does is just give me work although she know that I'm drowing....
But it's okay... Its all part and puzzle of work...

Wherelse A is more understanding because she knows that B is crazy and she gives me less work...
And even if she give, she give easy stuff.....

I'm lucky...
Although B is a little crazy, but she still cares and she did ask me to hand over some task to the VT to do...
And I AM A HUMAN, so I gave the one's that is easy..
How can i be crazy like her toooooo????

Because I'm a human...
A human who forgive and forget....
A human who thinks of others...
A human who don't wanna hurt others but ending up hurting myself...

I'm a stupid human..
That why my bf says that I'mm stupid..
Easy to be bullied...

Some bitches even think I'm stupid when they are more stupid..
How do you like that???
Stupid bitch....
How do you like it that the bitches that I know have the same starting alphabet on their name....

NOW, do I sound like a normal PISSED off human???
Great... Going home to have my sleep to continue work tomorrow...
Nites...

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

Work Work & Work

I thought studying was killing me...
I thought working life would be fun....
I thought being a housewife would be even nicer...
I was wrong....
Everything is wrong....

Being myself is the best but I'm being limited to be myself....
The only time I can be myself is when I'm with my family..
When I'm with my bf....
8 ppl to be exact... Yeah, including my sister's bf...
Because he is apart of us now...

Nowadays when we say family it is 8 people..
Soon it's gonna be 9....
That's when my bro decides to bring his gf in...
He's a big boy now...
Turning 21 next year....
And we are gonna go clubbing...
Shake it boon boon.....

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Works not killing me yet.. but the TAN'S are killing me already....
Can the Tan's be a little nice...
Revert to me faster lar...
So that i can finish ur stupid thingy and get on with the next person...
Can't be calling you again & again...

Doing tax is so not easy... especially it is peak now...
To learn the procedure and all is crazy..
Madness... Gonna deal with government ppl lagi teruk....

Having great seniors are the best thing in life..
They make my life easy...
Wrong also, when I make it right, they appreciate me...

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Didn't go to work for the pass 2 Saturdays n Sundays..
All i do is go out and enjoy with my bf...
Go watch movie..
Go shopping...
All we did was spend money which we are suppose to save...

How lar to buy house if we keep spending money???

I love this girl in my office...
OKAY... love as in friend...
Not gay love...
MR A... stop thinking about me being gay..
That's never happening although you see me with girls hugging around...

She's just acting like a big sister in the office...
Yeah, nice to have people taking care of you in the office...
I remember having a bro in secondary school...

Working sucks....
But with all the good people in there.. working is fun....
SUPER PEAK is ending soon and mini peak is on the way...
So fast 3 months pass by....
I'm officially a tax payer now...
Haha.....

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I'm liking my sister-in-law so much....=)

Afterall

After all it wasn't that bad....
I hate getting dressed up....
I hate going shopping for cloths...
I hate being told what to do and what not to do....

I'm all about myself.. me and only me...
It's always about how i wanna fell..
How I want things to be...

After 6 years I'm meeting you back..
It wasn't that bad after all...
I'm not hoping for anything BIG..
Just hoping things will be GOOD....

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Grandma's health is getting better and better..
Thank you god..


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Call me stupid and i will take it....
Despite being told again and again that it will hurt me, but i still do it...
Call Me keapo OKAY....
I will not get hurt if i'm not....

Sunday, March 27, 2011

Sunday

Sundays are for family...

The day i got my job offer was the day my grandma was admitted to the hospital because of an accident which was uncalled for...
All she did was crossed the road and a car came and knocked her...
All we thought was she had her right knee dislocated and 4 fracture ribs...

We didnt know she will go through so much in this age...
stroke.. almost heart atach.. urine disinfection..

But today I'm happy...
After 2 months.. so many weeks...
I saw her left leg moving.. with her own effort..
Yeah...

My grandma is a strong lady..
Pain also say no pain...
Unless she cant take the pain, then she say pain.. that 1 also unlike us, we will shout "PAIN"...
But she says it slowly....

Earlier she asked me to massage her...
Arrrggghh.. just imagine the oil...
It reminded me of my Indian grandma.. She loves puting VICKS.. which i hate...
But still i'll do it.. because I'm an asthma granddaughter and when i sleep at nite (when she comes over to my place to overnight) she will rub the vicks all over my chest...eeewwwww I hate it.. but she always shuts me by saying "it will help you to sleep better"... So i have to shut up and let her do it.. with my whole body feeling sticky....

I love her.. Till today, i still miss her....
Her birthday is on 1st April.. But with no Patty around...

Coming back to my Chinese Grandma.. My popo....
She wanted me to massage her legs and then she said hand and then her shoulder.. I asked her, "where else you want me to massage??"... she said " If you ask, then i'll have to ask you to massage my whole body".... Ahhhhh... "cha dou".... hehe....

I know she doesnt want to burden us with her condition..
But we told her that.. "as much as you did not think of us as a burden when we were small.. you are never a burden to us"...
There.. she understood our intention....
we are never giving up on her.....
And she is never giving up on herself...

Great....
I'm happy that she's feeling better..
getting better...

taking care of an adult is not easy...
She can now control her urine and bowel...
At least she tells us when she want to go to the toilet....

I may seem big in size.. but i definetly dont have the strenght....
I tried carrying grandma once and i decided to stop unless there is no choice and i have to do it..
Because she is still heavy despite being thin....

I'm happy we have SITI.. (the akak we hired to take care of popo)..
And I know she is happy takign care of popo...monday to firday is her shift...
Saturday and Sunday is our shift....
She loves popo and popo loves her...

Grandma, get well soon....
We all love you....!!!!

Saturday, March 26, 2011

Its Saturday..

Yeah... It's 12.57am.. 26/03/2011....
I'm still in the office...
God bless me.....

Saturday, March 19, 2011

I'm Lucky...

I'm super duper lucky....
OMG.... I wanna thank god...
Thank all the good karma's...
Thank all the good things that's around me protecting me...

I'm came back to the office despite being sleepy because I only slept at 7 today morning...
I wasn't out clubing n drinking if that is what any of you are thinking now..
Went for lunch in Mcdonalds 1Utama with Jeremy and Shal.. My colleagues
We were suppose to take away our order to come back and eat in pantry..But we ended up siting there since we saw a place to sit....
Damn...
I sent a message to my bf.. and because i was puting something inside my back, i accidently left my phone on the counter....
Damn....
I didn't realize until i finished eating..
Walked back to the office....
Then i started finding for my handphone....
Arrggghhhh.. the idea of not feeling my phone in the back freaked me out....

Immediately borrowed shal's phone and the 1time, it sounded like my hp was off...
"The number..." i cut the line...
Then i tried the 2nd time... Lucky it was ringing...
And when the guy picked up the call, he asked,
"You hilang phone??"....
Urgggghhhh...... haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa....
I felt relieved...
I said "yes yes..."
He said "You tinggalkan kat kaunter".....
"I datang ambil sekarang"....
Lucky the place was so near...
Immediately run and went to get it.....

The moment i saw my hp... i was more relieved but a little scared..
Dunno if there is any sensitive things inside...
But knowing me, i don't have anythign sensitive...
I don't take naked photo's....
Haha....

Worse come to worst is probably my bf's message reads " I LOVE YOU"...
Haha...
So i'm safe....

No signs of him "the guy who took my hp" invading my phone...

Thank you Mcdonald 1Utama's MANAGER...
Thank you so much...
Thank you god..thank you to all the forces around me....
Thank you so much.....

I believe my prayers yesterday was heard....
I'm hoping for all the good things to happen from now on...

I know i did the right decision although everthing that happened wasn't to my liking....

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

Tuesday

It's tuesday night...
I'm still in the office working...
I feel like sleeping...
I think i had another good day today, because everything that i'm doing is so good that there is no major mistakes for me to amend...

I think i'm liking my senior so much..
Since she is so good to me...
Although i did a kinda big mistake that i might get scolding, but she was seriously VERY patient...
And i'm lucky that the person in charge is so good to amend my mistake without scolding me...
But even if i got that scolding from her, i think it's okay, because it was my mistake...
Haha.. But i was lucky enough to not get scolding...

I think god has his way to make sure i go and see him to get his good blessings..
Thank you god...
I love you....
I'm happy that we had the long chat that afternnon...
I basically told you what i want, and here you are just giving the goodness to me..
Making life easier for me...

Oh, Did i tell any1 here that my dad is building this Bhrama temple??
My dad drove the Unser up the mountain and told me to drive down because he was gonna stay longer...
Uh....
All i told god was to make sure my journey down the mountain was taken care off...
I don't wanna knock anywhere...
Thank you god...

I always believed in you...
Having you as a family, friend and etc etc is the best thing in life...

I'm all so about god..

So now, god said go home n sleep.... (he wispered to my eyes to ask it to close)...
Haha..... dun wanna drive back sleepyly...
So off i go..
nites....

Sunday, February 27, 2011

1st Sunday...

It's my 1st Sudnay in the office...
I didn't really thought to come back today but since I know i did a mistake inmy calculation, and i don't wanna my senior see's it before i amend it, i decided to come back to amend my mistake in advance so that i don't get any scolding when she sees it...
Yeah... I know she's not gonna scold, but its better to amend it now, then for her to come and tell me..
It hot here...
This stupid company earnign lots n lots of money but cant afford to just on the aircond..
Or maybe buy us more fans to put around...
But lucky that im only sitting down, not moving around much, so i don't feel the extream heat..

I was tired at 9pm yeasterday, btu only slept at 1 in the mornign because of LIPSTICK JUNGLE..PRIVATE PRACTICE AND SHE'S GOT THE LOOK...
My god....
I was never and english series fan.. but im loving the series of Lipstick Jungle... which I know they keep CUTTING scenes...
Nevermind... I'm soon gonna get the whole set of it....
Neway not now, because I won't have the time to watch.....
Might as well just save the money....

Went shopping yesterday...
Spent almost RM 500 in Isetan...
I'm loving IORA's recycle bag..
Haha.... Wanted to buy a dress but the it was kinda elastic and it is too fitting which i'm definitely not gonna use it even if I buy, so I LEFT it...
Saved my RM 193.00....

I think i wanna eat subway for dinner.. because i've got the free coupon but i know my bf is going to say no...
If he ever says no, then next option is Nando's... NO again??ask him to eat bread....

After so long, me and bf had a proper day....
Went for movie yesterday...
Had lunch before movie started...
After movie went shopping, then went for dinner....

Very happy day after so long..
But I was sad that it was the end of the day because I know today is Sunday and that means Monday is coming fast and.. I'm SAD....

Dad said no matter what I do, I have to be patient...
Urghhhh......
PATIENT.....
I'm gonna learn to be patient and turn all the STRESSED aura in the files into good aura....
I'm gonna learn to enjoy what im doing....

I LOVE MY JOB....!!!! *so obvious I'm lying*...
But i'm gonna learn to love it....

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

Just another day

I wanted it so badly..
But now im trying to give up hope on what i wanted after getting it...
Stupid right??
I feel it too...

Grandma's been going in and out of the hospital..
I wish.. She wish.. Everyone wish that she can recover fast...
Yeah....
I believe if anyone reads this, they will be like.. YEAH.. WHO DOESN'T WANT TO GET WELL???

Grandma was admitted into hospital because of she was knocked by a car...
4 ribs fractured wasn't bad enough, her knee cap was dislocated....
Went for surgery for her knee and thought after 3 months she can start walkign back like normal...
Then 2 days after tat, she had stroke...
Right brain affected, affecting her left side of her body...
Hand cannot move.. leg cannot move.
All she could move was her right hand and leg which she keeps thinking that it is her left leg n arm...
Went home after 3 weeks in the hospital and we were so happy to celebrate Chinese New Year with her...
stayed at home for 1 week and there, she goes back into the hospital because of urine infection...
Duh... bad bad bad...
But she was happy in the hospital because te nurse there all sayang her so much...
The after 2 days, she's suppose to go home but she said she's having difficulty breathing...
Arrrggghhh...
It was a saturday... 12th February....
She keep telling the nurse she don't wanna go back.. having difficulty breathing...
went to the hospital, there.. another news...
Suspect heart attack....
Wth......

The doctors tried to do everythign they can..
Thinning her blood and etc...
They don't dare to do any operation because of her leg surgery and her age...
After 1 week.... she was sent back home.. and now resting in my uncle's house...

Hoping for her to recover is all that i can do n think off....

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Working here is seriously not easy...
Never easy i guess..
Gotta learn urself...
Yeah.. they teach you and expect you to knoww alot.. everything like you are god sent angel and a CPU with a large hard disk where the moment they say something, your brain gotta function like an internet..
find information and save it up..

I keep doign silly mistake which i consider can be forgiven... yeah.. know y i say so??
because next time when i have to train sum1.. i won't expect the person to know all, but at least the basic.. and then learn ALL you can..

the best part is this people here, tell you that u are wrong.. but never tells you how to rectify...
Damn... you gotta go and ask.. "okay, since it's been done, so what should i do now".....
The only reason that i can think of why am i going through this is because god wants me to learn from mistake.. and if you have done something wrong.. i have to bare the consequences...
YEAH.. I'VE LEARNED THAT.....

And i think im a little sensitive at moments...
But who cares.. cz i think im starting to care less about everything because people care less..
So tell me why should i care more??

There's no1 to blame here... because everyday is a learning day...
no matter, im sleeping, eating, studying, working.. doign anything..
i'm still learning to do the best....

Even to FART, must learn to fart softly so that no1 give you the "eeewwww".. why fart so loud....
haha...they won't make any noise about got smell o not.. but they will make noise about the sound...

yeah that's life.... the thing that does not hurt others, they will complain.. but thing that will hurt them, they complain less...

Still sitting in the office waiting for sum1 to come and fetch me..
Don't dare do this doing working hours..
because every1 will be walking and there are people sitting behind me...
Now tat every1 as gone home.. only left like 4 people which is not sitting near me...
So main bantai tulis lar.....

learn learn learn....
I'm learning.. and im never gonna stop learning..
Can't wait to buy my own car...

Monday, February 7, 2011

CNY Suay not finished...

Did I mentioned that I hurt my back???
Did I mention my palate is swollen...??
Did I mention that I almost got into the food poisoning issue??

So what happened today is I locked myself out of my car because the key was inside...
The best part was, I only closed the door half way....

Had to call for rescue and waited for 20 minute...
Hai... reach the carpark already 8.15...
10 minutes to walk, but waited for 20 minute..
by the time rescue (my dad) came, it was 8,45 and I told him my door was HALF closed...
So he said.. HAIYOH.. you should have BANGED hard on the door to CLOSE it and the KNOB will come up..
ArrrggghhhhhhhhHHHHH.....
If my mum told my dad properly, then I wouldn't have been late to work.. and my dad dunit to come all the way to rescue me...

I took it positively on what's happening to my life....
Because everything has got its reason....

Sunday, February 6, 2011

CNY

The idea of going back to work SUCKS big time...
Trust me... it does..
Because people like me need 12 hours of sleep...
And I definitely did not sleep for 12 hours for the past 4 days...

I better write a post now before i go back to work tomorrow

Wednesday night I slept at 1 because of Mr M....
Thursday night because we went for supper with my uncle from Penang...
Friday night was also supper night...
Saturday was because of ironing night...
Sunday is sleeping early night...

Thursday had to get up early because mother ask to get up to get ready to go to my aunty's house for breakfast...(too many "to")
Friday morning because I had to wash cloths..(my plan was to wash cloths on Thursday but it was 1st day of CNY and we are not allowed to wash cloths)...
Saturday morning, mum ask to get up to belanja her breakfast...
Sunday morning is because I had to iron the remaining cloths that was not done on Saturday night....

So I've been busy with family and ironing & washing..
No time for my sleep....
Had to bring my book around to study..
Hai....
Seeing everyone gambling, playing mahjong and Black Jack was too tempting...
Haiiii Haiii Haiiii...
But I did gamble too.... 20 cent...40 cent..
Hehehehehe.....

Was in my grandma's house for the past 4 days....
Being in her condition did not ever ever stop her from LOU SANG'ING with us...
The only thing is that before we could start, she already started lou sang and feed herself..

I'm happy that grandma's left hand and leg is giving some responds when she is being FORCED by her own weight to move and use weight on them (her leg and arm)...
Her condition now just gave all the family members a chance to get back together and forget all the past sad moments and be happy at this current moment....

I wonder does it have to be something bad to give us something good??
Just like we have day n night..
Good n bad...
Left n right....

Grandma.. I'm proud of your fast recovery...
Do not ever think that you are a burden to us..
I know taking care of an adult is difficult but it is our responsibility to take care of you..
We will never ever think of you as a burden...

30th night we ate steamboat....
Half way eating no ELECTRICITY.... WTH???
Siao oOooooOOooo......

1st night had vegetarian dinner... (i don't like.. and here I'm actually planning on a vegetarian thingy for a month)..
2nd night was normal Chinese dinner....
3rd night my 2nd aunties husband decided to take all of us for dinner in a restaurant...
Carrying grandma and putting her in the wheel chair then car was not an easy thing, but we all managed...
When every1 joins together, impossible becomes possible..
Grandma was happy...
Whatever we ate, she had a little share of it..

Carrying grandma was definitely not an easy task..
I tried and hurted my back...
Special thank to UNCLE EDDY... THANK YOU
You are really the man..
I had the strength but not the posture...
But that did not stop me from taking care of grandma....

Eating the kaya bun from the restaurant burned my lelangit...
Arrgggghhhhh.. that was so paining..
My palate still hurts... bengkak.. can feel all the lines so clearly....

Haha.. trust me all suppers were fattening foods....
1st night MCD...
2nd night STARBUCKS..
3rd night DOMINOS..
4th afternoon KFC....
fatty fatty...

My lou sang sessions wish is all for grandma...
I want her to recover fast...
My prayers everynight is for grandma..
I want her to walk n talk n eat like how she always did....

backache... swollen palate... Stomach pain on Saturday...
Hopping that my year ahead will be a good one...




I love you..
May 6 years be 12 years...
12 years be 24 years..
24 be 48 years...
48 be 96 years....

I love you... love you... love you...

Sunday, January 30, 2011

Can I?

Sunday with no sun...
My feeling/emotion is just like the rain...
I'm sad.. moody and just wanna throw everything that is in my mind and go ahead with what i wanna do...
I keep thinking for how others will feel...
And i'm hurting inside now..
I hate it..

Can I just walk out now???
Can I just do it??
Can I???

Out I go.. leaving everything behind other than my cash n keys..

Better inTime



Click on this video on a friends link...
The song means so much....

Talk to a friend for more than 1 hour...
Sometimes we should really learn to think for ourself...
No point thinking for other when they don't think about you..
Do you agree??
No one on earth will like everything about you except for yourself...
We cant be thinking about others for the rest of our life..

Remember that "It'll all get better in time"..& "All I know is I'mma be ok"
So why worry??

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I'M MISSING MY BF AGAIN....
The midnight missing him is BACK...

I'm Happy

I'm Happy that grandma's condition is getting better & better
I'm happy that I'm working..
I'm happy every1 is tolerating with each other....
I'm happy that every1 is grateful to each other...
I'm happy that my salary is IN...
I'm happy that I enjoyed my Friday night with my colleagues..
I'm happy that I enjoyed my night, yesterday with my college friends...
I'm happy I'm gonna celebrate Chinese New Year in less than a week..
I'm Happy that I'm working...
I'm happy that my senior are good to me..
I'm happy that my managers are friendly.. especially miss I...
I'm happy that I've got good colleagues to go for lunch together...
I'm happy that my toes are not crying anymore...

I'M JUST SO HAPPY WITH MY CURRENT LIFE....
Not regretting....

If I ever say I'm sad, it is because I don't get my 12 hour sleep anymore...
I'm sad that I'm trying to control my food intake...
I'm sad that my office toilet don't have the SQUATTING cubicles...
I'm sad that I gotta walk 15 minute to the office & carpark...
I'm sad that whenever I use formal, I gotta keep pulling my skirt down because it keep raising up..


Somehow, I'm happy that all this sad things are not that SERIOUS...
Because i can still adjust to all this sad things....
Can't get 12 hour sleep, NVM, because I can at least get my 6 hours of sleep...
I can't eat a lot, but I can still eat a little...
No squatting cubicle, but got pipe...
15 minute walk, take it as exercise...
Formal cloths better than no cloths...

So I'm still HAPPY....

Ate Yee Sang for the 2nd time this year...
More yee sang on the way....
More more happy things on the way..
Thank you god...!!!!!

Thursday, January 27, 2011

The only time

Guess the only thing about work that I'm happy about is when I see INCREASED cash in my bank account...
Did so many task today..
But I was fast lar...
Drove out during working hour today...
Huh... Hate the idea of RAIN & TRAFFIC JAM...
Just imagine getting my shoes wet...
urghhhhh.... I love this shoe so muchhhhhhh.....
Was thinking to walk barefoot to the car just to make sure my shoes does not get wet...
Lucky it wasn't raining when I wanted to walk...
Just that the road was wet... Walked damn slow to the car...

Tomorrow morning also must go out...
I love to do things especially when I'm TAUGHT to do the task...
Don't dump the job to me and leave me hanging..
That makes me sad.... =(...

AT LAST.. grandma is home...
she talks more.. but still prefer to use sign language which we don't understand...
She opens her eyes longer now...
Can sit on wheel chair already...
Can eat...
Just waiting for her to do acupuncture to cure her paralyzed area....
Thank you god....
23 years.. You never failed me...
Please never fail me OKAY....
Be with me.. Guide me...


I'm loving all the opportunities that you are giving me..
The best lesson was grandma's....
I was very positive.. we were all positive.. because we know when we are positive, you are there to give us positive feedback...
Grandma is getting better day by day.. but I wish you can speed up the process...
CAN???
PLEASE....

I can't wait to earn RM 10,000...
Then I'll ask you for RM100,000...
After that RM1,00,000...
When lar you gonna give me???

Sunday, January 23, 2011

My prayers (heard)

THANK YOU GOD...
I'm glad that all our prayers are being heard by you....
Grandma is leaving the hospital on Wednesday..
I just hope with all the acupuncture & chinese medication will help her from the stage of half paralyzed..

Grandma did give some reaction on her left foot when we press hard objects on her sole...
I'm just hoping it is her reaction and not the muscle's doing the moving...
(just like after chopping the crab into2 and it's legs still moves)

Urgghhhh.... Having grandma stay in her own house is definitely better because we dunit to be told by nurse to see grandma 2 by 2...HWD ward (half discounted ward, said by my uncle which is NOT the meaning to it)
Which we did not bother to follow and nurses ended up getting fed up and just decided to ignore our presence as long as we do not make too much noise....

Being able to speak Tamil was a very good thing because most of the nurse there were INDIAN's and some was from INDIA...
Getting them to pay extra attention to my grandma's need was easy...
Grandma made sure she asked us to get them roti sardin for them.. (because of their kindness)..
Then my aunty gave them some cakes to eat too....
Yesterday, 1 of the nurse came to my grandma and told her to stop buying food for them saying that they are getting fat.. (just them being kind)...
But my grandma told my mum to cook them chicken curry...
Haha.. My poor grandma....
She's very alert with whats going on around her... but her reactions are kinda slow...

All I'm hoping for is her to be able to get over her paralyze situation and join us for the re-union dinner instead of she eating porridge and we eating solid hard big food...

Her original plan was to come over to my house to have the reunion dinner with us...
But with her condition now, everyone wants to have reunion together.. (humans nature, to only get closer when something goes wrong)...
So we are having it at grandma's place and we are having STEAMBOAT...
Hehe.. my favourite....

Why steamboat?? cz every1 is working and it is the easiest to cook....

Grandma, Thanks for being strong for yourself...
Thank you to all family member to NOT stop taking care of popo...
Thank you to friends and strangers for your kind heart and prayers for my grandma...
Most important, thank you god for NOT giving up on us.. =)

Saturday, January 22, 2011

1st week

My 1st week of work just ended...
I've been assigned to 2 senior and I notice they just love to smile..
No idea why...
Guess my department humans are not that serious I guess( wait till I do something wrong then there comes the lion & lioness)..
Haha

I thought only Auditors get their own laptop..
Bt no.
I got mine too..
I wonder is the office drawers are secured o not...
Wish to just keep it there and not take home because I'll have to walk up & down (carpark & office) for like 15 mnt.
Gosh.... It's tiring...
Most important is must walk slow...
Go early walk slow.. Go late.. run & die...

Now I'm just waiting to get myself a pair of good heels.. No more CHIPLAK brand...
Neway my formal 1 is just great..
No pain.. my toes said thank you to me yesterday...
WHY didn't I thought of that on the 2nd day???
Purposely went to buy a new pair of shoe during lunch, thinking that that pair of shoe could save my toes from crying out loud...
But they did not help much either.. just a little rounder only...

Seniors said killer days start from Monday...
Urghhhh.....
I hope it's not that BAD...
Do I still get to go back at 5.30???

I'm lucky to have 3 other good friends in the same department but different title...
LUNCH TOGETHER??
YEAH...!!!! Dunit to eat lunch alone...
But our peak period is just around the corner....
SO guess gotta stock up my drawers with food in case no1 to teman me makan...
Oats will be the best idea...
No chance of getting spoiled and easy cook....

Hurray.. I'M WORKING NOW....

Went for dinner last night and the bill was RM 50.50...
Mm was like.. WHY SO EXPENSIVE???
The only thing I told mm was.. MA, I'M WORKING....
Haha... it's fun when we have the money power...
Dunit to keep asking for money.. (I'm yet to get my salary)....But I'm already wasting all..

Signing out now.....

Thursday, January 20, 2011

Wow..Auditior, check this out...



Was browsing my facebook link and I saw this link..
OMG.. it's like so true if you are an Auditor..
Haha..

Working

Started work on monday...
Orientation on both Monday and Tuesday...
Got so sleepy listening to everything....
Yeah... can't be talking much about employer..
That is part of the agreement that I must never disclose where im working and talk bad about colleagues..
Yeah... it was 1 of the Q, in the Question and Answer thingy..

Saw my office and desk...
Oh my.. There goes my dream working place...
Was at least expecting something like a big divider from each other and pantry right beside me so that I can  do my own drink and OATS...
Yeah been eating oats quiet frequently.. but guess it shattered my dream when I asked 1 of my colleague where the pantry is...

It's holiday today.. and I'm happy because I got my 12 hour sleep...
Can't be sleeping late on working days..
Just imagine walking 15 minutes from the carpark to the office in the morning, then walk back to the carpark after office hours...
Oh my.. My toes are crying in pain..
Heel heels...
Oh my...

How I wished they said I can just use slippers to work..

On top of that climbed the 272 steps last night...
God, i wanna say thank you...
My grandma is getting better day after days..
Just waiting for her to get out of hospital now....

Off to shopping now..
Buh bye...

Saturday, January 15, 2011

Day 5 in ICU

When we saw the monitor showed 50,49,38,47 up to 46, our heart was really very sad...
The minimum was 50 heart rate...
Grandma's heart should not go lower than 50.. Bt that was her heart beat..
We couldn't do anything...
We just tried to talk to her to increase back her heart rate, because when we talk, her heart rate goes up..

I'm happy today grandma's heart rate is showing good improvement..
it was 50 and above...
The nurse there said that it even went up to 60++...

She's talking.. she's showing good improvement..
Her respiratory on the monitor showed improvement too....
Grandma is starting to cough...
Too much phlegm and we can't do anything but to ask the nurse to suck it out...
Grandma tried to cough it out herself but she just can't cough hard, her ribs hurts...

Cousin even brought few of the mahjong tiles for grandma to feel...
She guessed it correctly and said that "if the doctor see's me holding this, he will think that I'm a gambler"..
Nothing matters now..
Driver caught can never return my grandma's health...
All we WANT now is her to recover fast....

My aunt said that earlier when she was finding for a pendant and accidentally pushed hard on grandma's left shoulder, she said it was PAIN..(her left side body is currently paralyzed.)
I did some massage on her left leg so that her muscle's will not be cramped up...
Chinese traditional doctor said that if her paralyzed body is not massaged for 3 months (no movement), then it will be stiff and then her body cannot be saved...

I want grandma to be her healthy self again....

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It was sister's birthday today....
Went to TGIF in garden's and BF insisted that my sister got her birthday brownies...
It was funny looking at how both of them were arguing with the knife...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIS...!!!!!!!!

Let's all pray for grandma WANTING her to recover fast...

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

Improvement

There is improvement in my grandma's condition...
I'm happy.. But GOD, I'm asking for more..
I want her to wake up, talk, walk and be her happy self like how she used to be..
Not sleep on the bed with her eye closed...

Morning, my uncle smsed and said that grandma opened her eyez..
Doctor said it was a good sign...
Although her left side is paralyzed, she still managed to open both her eyes...

Yesterday my aunt said her left hand was cold..
But today when I held her left hand, her hand was warm...
Good sign.. GOOD SIGN...
Thank you god...
But Iwant more...
Never say no to me...
I know you love her too much too....

But please... do something here..
Do something for her..
For your child...
I'm not asking for her to get any younger.. but I want her to get up and walk n talk like how she used to...
YES.... THIS IS WHAT I WANT...
This is what all of us want.....

It's been 24 hour...
Another 24 hour to go....

May god bless everyone....

Yesterday night when I saw another lady coming into the ICU, and suddenly she was having difficulty...
I was very sad to see that....
Just 20 mnt back when she was brought in, I smiled at her and she smiled back..
I immediately went out and get her family member because they were sitting outside...

I saw some of them was crying... I guess it must be her daughter..
They immediately transferred her to another hospital..
I got no idea why...
Maybe because RM2500 per night is MADNESS...
Trust me... I was like HUH when the admin person came and said that amount..
Kena scolding from my aunty pulak because she wanna talk about my gma's health, dowan talk about money.. haha

Grandma please get well...
We are all her for you...!!!

Monday, January 10, 2011

Wish for MIRACLE

I'm wishing for miracle to happen to my grandma now..
She's still in ICU, but this time is for a different reason...
She is semi-coma now...
Her right brain is swollen and there is blood cloth and I heard something like there is dead tissue in her brain..
Hai.....
There is nothing for us to do now but to only wait for miracle to happen....

24-48 hour from now is critical moment..
Just hope her body can respond to the medication that the doctors are giving...

May all the gods bless her....
Hope it's all a nightmare and tomorrow will be a better day..

Can word like "PARIAH" make you angry??

I would really like to get the book and read it since everyone is making a big HU-HA with this issue...
Can the word pariah really make and indian guy angry???
Interlok..Where can i get you??

I remember my dad said, if you are talking to an indian GUY, never ever use the word pariah because they can get really mad and might even kill you..

To me pariah just means like "ish tak guna betul"....
guess indians dun like to be called tak guna lar..
haha...
The other meaning to pariah can be like OUTDATED....

I do understand why the elderly and the politician making a big issue out of it because they don't want childrens to use and brake the harmony of everyone...
Calling some1 pariah means they are either useless or outdated....

It all up to the certain person to either get angry or laugh at that sentence...
Getting angry is in the blood of an INDIAN...
I get angry too..
Hehe....

Lets assume PARIAH means Pandai OKAY...
So when some1 says "Eh, PARIAH LAR YOU"...
Laugh n say TERIMA KASIH...
Hehe

Let's not spoil our 1 Malaysia concept just because of 1 word..
It was a 1/2 century ago's story..

The star 1
The Star 2

Sunday, January 9, 2011

WGE 9979 owner....

Having said, what has to happen will happen no matter how we avoid it...
Call it karma...
Yeah... I kinda believe in karma..
But I always believe that goodness will be be returned with the same amount and bad things will be returned with the same amount too...

Reacting to a situation will only either make us feel good or bad...
Looking at how everyone is reacting to what has had happened is very shocking...
Everyone has become bad people..
They keep cursing and wishing bad things to happen...

No doubt that I love my grandma and I salute her for how she is still taking things coolly..
All she said was, "when you people find the guy, never ever beat him"
I don't wanna use the word PITY here because no one will ever pity me when I'm in trouble and my grandma do not need us to pity her.. All she need now is our support and someone to stay by her to cope with her condition..

I bet the guy is already scared (if he has already heard about this issue) because we have already contacted the police.. JPJ would have blacklisted him and few gangster guy is finding for him to get him to see my grandma and pay the bills which is gonna cost him around RM20K...

Till today, the owner of WGE 9979 has not made police report...
All we are asking is make the report and let the insurance company to handle it...
No one wants to hurt you...

My grandma strictly told us never to do anything to you...
So please, anyone who know's the owner of this car, please contact him and ask him to go and make the police report....
The accident happened in JINJANG, in front of the YONG TAU FOO stall

My grandma's operation went smoothly...
She's been sleeping in the ICU for 2 days because of her breathing problem..
All the doctor and nurse are very kind to her...
She will be in good shape in 3 months....
This is the proof to my grandma's kindness...

Life is a test...
It's either we pass or fail....
Owner of the car, if you are reading this, just remember that all we want is you to make a police report..
Nothing else.. if you are kind enough just visit her...
I promise, no one will hurt you...
Be responsible for what you have done....

An old lady like my grandma will not want to hurt herself...
Chinese new year is 1 month away..
Her birthday celebration is 1 month away too..
She bought her cloths waiting to use it on that day...
She goes to the market everyday and you stopped her from doing so...
I know you tekan your brek.. but tak cukp makan..
I know, you sending your kids to school is important, but my grandma's health is important too...
RM100 is definitely not enough now.. because she didn't want your money but your hp num which you said NO since you gave her RM100...
People there asked you to send my grandma to the hosp, but you said you were too busy, need to send kids to school...
You left...
You said sorry..
So it was definitely your fault right??

Be a human please..
If it was your mother or grandmother or wife or daughter or your FAMILY member, i think you will react the same way...
Some people said the owner of the car is SAMSENG..
But I just wanna know, don't you wanna be responsible for your act??

Saturday, January 8, 2011

My Grandma

it's been 4 days and 3 night my grandma staying in the hospital..
1st day went it, slept without sitting down.. too pain on her ribs
2nd day tried to lift her upper part of the bed..
3rd day can sit a little with her enduring the pain....
today, went for surgery on her knee cap and is sleeping in the ICU because of her old age...
Doctor scared of complication since she is already 82 years old...

She had difficult breathing after the operation due to the hospital was doing renovation on the same floor of the ICU..
I wonder how can they do that on the ICU floor...
Shift lar.. why put people's life in danger???

I like how the nurse asked...
" wah, banyak orang datang tengok nenek you, tapi patient lain tak ada orang datang tengok"...
What do you expect???
We love her lar....
We made sure there is some1 to stay with her every night except for today because we cannot stay in the ICU room...

I hope she gets well soon...

Salute my grandma lar...
She never complained about her pain..
Pain also she just bite on her teeth...
Never make noise...

If we wanna know if she is in pain, all we gotta do is look at her facial expression..
NO WAY of her saying "PAIN LAR"... hehe....

I remember the 1st day when she was sent to the ward, she told us that her leg was paining and she asked us to help her move her left leg..bend, lift, bend, straight....
I touched her knee cap and felt it was swollen and touched the other knee...
I confirmed that her knee got problem ady..
Told her not to move until the X-ray result is out....
But she sendiri pandai2 move bcz she know that i will not help her to move her leg...

The moment the X-ray result was out.. haha... she stopped moving because she know that it is BAD to move..
Doctor immediately wrapped her leg and put ice pack on her knee...
Today, her knee has already been operated...
Doctor said everything went smoothly..
She was very strong..

I'm happy that she is not giving up on herself..
I know she will never give up on herself..
She wanna live long.. Waiting to see her 5th generation...

Next month, we will be celebrating her birthday grandly..
She even went and got her cloths done...

But this kinda thing gotta happen...
Nevermind... we are still going on with the plan....
and she might be sitting on the wheel chair being pushed around and not walk as how she always did...

I just hope the guy who knocked her can be responsible of what he has done...
Do not ever2 run away from responsibilities..

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