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Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Love is....

Love is just bullshyt....
Trust me when i say it...
I'm in love..
And love is blind..
It makes you do crazy things..
And then when you think back..(if you break up)
It is all aaawweeeewwwww feeling.....

We often say I LOVE YOU...
It wasn't easy for me to say it....
But eventually, the feeling..
The want... The need took over...

At 1st, it was all that I WANT you...
But now... eventually... it went to I NEED you...

I always wanted that romantic thingy..
YEAH... constant romantic....
Everyday must be romantic....
The visual of a guy opening my door when i wanna get into his car and things..
But now when a guy does it for me, I wonder... WHY must i wait for him to open the door when i can do it FAST...
Because by the time he opens the door, and smiles at me and ask me to get in... I think i can just go mad...
Once in a while... YEAH.. the words like "once in a while" (just fine)... when it is raining, or i am not capable of doing so (opening my door).. OR i'm in my MOST beautiful dress.. and he does it.. WOW.. that feels great..
WHAT SAY YOU?? THE GIRLS OUT THERE???

Doing it everyday is like BORING...
Even words like I LOVE YOU....
It's a way of a couple to express their love.. but do you really need to say it EVERY SECOND???
Say it only when you mean it....
That will make the relationship boiling HOT....

I'm dreaming...

Yeah yeah.....
I'm going for an interview tomorrow..
The interview that I'm going for is along the BUS road...
So I'm very happy..
I counted if i ever wanna work using a car and petrol.. i gotta waste at least RM 600 per month..
Just imagine petrol.. maintenance.. and parking..
wow... that's crazy....
RM 600 per month... 12 months is RM7200... I COULD GO FOR A HOLIDAY...
I'm planing to go to Gold Coast by the end of the year...
OH MY GOD....

So using a bus means better right??
RM 3 per day.. 5 day work is like rm 15... x 4...RM 60
RM 720.. RM 7200- RM720 = RM 6480...
WOW... I'll be saving so much..
GODS grace....
I need to save every penny....

And i've decided every month i'm gonna buy a pair of nice cloths.. nice shoe.. HEELs...
Yeah... i'm gonna love it...
So i definitely need my own place.......
If i'm gonna work for 20 years.. i'm gonna have 12 x 20 = 240 pairs of shoes....
WOW....
I don't wanna wear the same piece of outfit in the same month..
So 30 different working outfit... x 3 months.. 90 outfits in my cupboard...
WAH SEH..
Every time i need to go for an event... new outfit...
I really need my own walk in closet..
I like that idea.....
I love the idea...

I wanna make sure this idea is gonna be real in few years time....
My house with 6 bed rooms... 6 bathrooms...
WOW... I'M STARTING TO DREAM....

And I'm starting to LOVE YOU...
Love and love and love...

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Some Place.....

Someone pissed me off yesterday in my mum's office..
And damn.. I HATE THAT IDIOT....
Lucky he only comes to my mum's office once a year just to do some work...
And i'll surely kill him if i am ready to go to jail....

Sad that PUDU JAIL is gone...
I've only gone in once....
NOT BECAUSE I'M CAUGHT DOING BAD...
Because of the pudu jail exhibition...
Remember few years back, they opened it like some MUSEUM thingy..???

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So i had fun teasing my dad and giving high five to my elder sis for his lame jokes...
Using the cards..
Haha..... I LOVE MY DAD...
He's the greatest guy.... then comes my bro and my bf....
Wahaha... 3 dad's to be exact...
Because all of them act like my dad....

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Applying for jobs now....
Anyone got great jobs for me???
Right beside the train.. or the bus stop...???

1st year working.. i'm buying a car....
2nd year working.. i'm buying a house....
And then i'm moving out....
Sis asked me to get a house with 4 rooms..
Because they wanna follow me and all i told her was..
I'm not taking girls in....
wahahaha...
So my sis told my bro that he can move in....
wahahaha........

NO.... i want my own place with just me and only me.....
Someplace where i come home at any time i like...
And throw my cloths at any place....

God.... please give me a job...
And make sure it is some office shyt...
Place to travel..
Great benefits..
High salary....
What else do i need???
anything that sounds GREAT....

Get out.....



I've been waiting all day for ya babe
So won't cha come and sit and talk to me
And tell me how we're gonna be together always
Hope you know that when it's late at night
I Hold on to my pillow tight
And think of how you promised me forever
(I never thought that anyone)
Could make me feel this way
(Now that you're here boy all I want)
Is just a chance to say

[Chorus]
Get Out, (leave) right now,
It's the end of you and me
It's too late (now) and I can't wait for you to be gone
'Cause I know about her (who) and I wonder (why) how I bought all the lies
You said that you would treat me right but you was just a waste of time (waste of time)

Tell me why you're looking so confused
When I'm the one who didn't know the truth
How could you ever be so cold
To go behind my back and call my friend
Boy you must have gone and bumped your head
Because you left her number on your phone
(So now after all is said and done)
Maybe I'm the one to blame but
(To think that you could be the one)
Well it didn't work out that way

[Chorus]

I wanted you right here with me but I have no choice you've gotta leave
Because my heart is breakin'
With every word I'm sayin'
I gave up everything I had
On something that just wouldn't last
But I refuse to cry
No tears will fall from these
Eyeee-eeee-eeees
Ooooh, ooooh
Get out

[Chorus x2]

Get out (leave)
You and me
It's too late (too late)
You ohh
Bout her (who, why)
You said that you would treat me right (noooo)
but it was just a waste of time (waste of time)

Ohhhh oh oh oh hoh oh

Monday, June 28, 2010

The essence of sri Bhagavad gita..

Why are you unnecessarily worrying?
Whom do you fear?
Who can kill you?
Soul is neither born nor does it dies.


What has happened has happened for the best.
What is happening is happening for the best.
What will happen will happen for the best.
Do not brood over the past.
Do not worry about the future.
The present is on.


What have you lost, that you are weeping?
What have you brought, that you have lost?
What have you made, that have been destroyed?
You brought nothing.
What you have, you got from here,
What you took, you took from here,
What you gave you gave into this universe.


You have come empty handed and shall go empty handed.
What was yours today was somebody else’s in the past and will be someone else’s in the future.

You think it is yours and are deeply engrossed in it.
This attachment is the cause of all your sorrows.

CHANGE IS THE LAW OF LIFE.


 
Saw this on the wall of my mum's office...
So just though to share it with everyone...

Sunday, June 27, 2010

Best Drug...

Been working all day long with you right beside me browsing your shits and asking me to not turn and concentrate on my work because you are looking at things which you don't wanna me see....
HOW LAME CAN YOU BE????
I'm done with my work....
Maybe gotta clear all my things till Tuesday then I'm off to find a full time job...

I hope i get a job fast.. maybe with a RM 2000++++ salary...
Then by next year i can buy a car..
Following year they increase my salary then i buy a house..
Then 3 years after that.. PAY for my own wedding...
My own wedding dinner... which will cost me at least RM 100k....
WOW.... that's too much right....
And there is one person who is reading this is dying to remind me about 2nd of JULY... I KNOW....
You dunnit to keep reminding me about that....
Yeah... in case of any one thinking about what is on 2nd of JULY is............... i am getting engaged....
Faster congratulate me please......
Hehe.....



P/S..... I LOVE YOU... and I was kidding about that engagement thingy....
It's just that my results will be out on that day...
Haha...
A little nervous...
A little scared...
A little of anything which sound like DIE...

Mum is cooking now..
I can hear her frying something with that "PLIP PLOP" sound of  the oil...

I hate it that South Korea is going back... FOOTBALL...
It's World Cup... Football fever....
I was screaming my lungs out when the S.K's were not playing so good last night...
The goal balls near the goal was so OUT.. and slow.. and SOFT....
So many chance to goal but HAIH.....
And they gave so much space for Uruguay during the 2nd goal...
WHAT THE.... ARrrrggghhhhhhhhhhh...
So long since i scream here.....
My sis asked me " jie, your life depend on their goals isit???"
Haha.....

Bought so much of Milk and Soya Bean drink.....
And 20 packets of Groundnuts....
My dad's gonna scream at me later...
wahahahha.....
But he know that he love's it and I am one idiot who loves spoiling my loved ones and love hurting them too...
wahahaha.....

Okay.. i'm gonna help my mum now..
or dad's gonna bising...
Buh Bye.....

Saturday, June 26, 2010

Lesson

Lessons are taught to be learned and used when it is appropriate....
I think i've learned to let go and move on because i can see the changes in everything and i believe everything has got it's reason....
God is watching every move and everything...
And i wanna tell you.. THE 1 UP THERE.... I know what i want... and what i want is what i've got...
So please do not try to change my mind....
Do not take what is mine..
And do not give me what is not mine...
Because what is not mine, is not meant to be mine...
And if it is not meant for me...
For YOUR sake.. please do not give me...
I don't wanna burden you too much with all my rants and noise and cries and whatever....
UNDERSTAND????
Great... i think i've talked to you about it last night...
So we have an understanding here...

Watched Knight & Day at times square in the afternoon...
So long since i watched movie there...Yeah... and so long since i bought magazines to read...

Sometimes, we gotta go through hard time to know what is the best...
Although it is hard to forget...
DO IT...
For the sake of the ones you love..
It's worth it...
I'm trying... never force the process...
=)

Friday, June 25, 2010

Miss you

Oh baby.... it's so nice to be in your arms...
It's nice to have you close...
It's nice to have your smile...
Your laugh..
and everything about you.....



Watched She is out of my league earlier in Midvalley....
I find the movie okay only lar..
Nothing very great..
But there is one lesson to be learned from the movie....
Never think you are not good enough for your other half..
Because they think that you are as perfect as them...
If your other half makes too much noise..
Ask them to HUSH and listen to you.....
You choose how to live your life...
No one else....

After the movie called my sister and had lunch with them....
She was there for the pets exhibition and got lots of snack for MiMi....

MiMi's having tough time now...
She cries every night because of the pain...
She don't feel like walking around...
Eat also she's a little lazy....
12 years and still strong...
She loves to stand beside the washing machine when someone is operating it...
It's like she just wanna spend some time to memorize your faces and want's us to talk and pat her...
I Love you MiMi....

 Best shot of MiMi....

Thursday, June 24, 2010

The Bitch's Maiden Milk

For some reason.. I'M VERY HAPPY....
Thank you so much.....

Been helping my mum in her office...
And lucky every morning i am still on my bed (my eye only opens when the sun is 90 degree's up my head) except for if my dad ask me to go to the office early...
What i hate most yesterday was my dad stood in front of my room and was shouting my name...
I was like.. WHAT KINDA DISASTER HAPPEN NOW THAT HE IS CALLING ME TO WAKE UP...
Mana tau, all he wanted was me to get to my mum's office to take care of it because my mum wanted to go out...

Did i mention about this story where my mum wake me up and i thought i was late for school???
Guess no....
This happened when i was in Form 4...
Me and my elder sis slept in the afternoon because of too tired (i guess..)
Around 9 something IN THE NIGHT...
My mum knock the room door and what we heard was...
FASTER GET UP, YOU ARE GONNA BE LATE FOR SCHOOL...
The only reason i can think of, of why my mum did that was maybe she knocked and called our name few times and we did not answer her...
I swear i did not hear her calling my name....

I immediately got up and hurried out because the 1st thing i did during those times was straight to the bathroom to get ready....
And what i saw was all the lights were on and my bro was watching tv.....
Went and saw the time and scolded my mum for scaring us.....

But that situation damn tension...
Paling benci lambat ke sekolah....
And being a prefect.. lagi teruk if we are late....

Thank you for having faith...
Thank you for having trust..
Thank you for giving happiness
Thank you for sacrificing..
Thank you for anything and everything..
Because you are the best thing that have ever happened till today....

We would have drop something along the way..
And i'm happy that we have picked it up now....
I've never blamed god for what have happened because it was half my mistake...
But now... I'm gonna thank god that he opened both our eye's to see what is real and what is not....
I'm keeping what is mine...
I'm throwing away what is not mine....

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I hate going to the coffee shop near my house with sumone who is not my family..
Because people will STARE....
WHY??
Because people here know my parents.. and worse still if the person i'm with is a guy..
They stare and stare and stare....

Bought durian earlier in the afternoon...
SEDAP...
And my dad was making noise because the whole office smelled of durian.....

Dinner was GREAT....
I think the best dinner after so long...
And the fullest dinner....
I consider this cheap too..

No photo taken..... sorry.....

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

Do you agree??

Do you agree that we tend to hurt others because we don't want to hurt ourself??

Was just online playing games and all of a sudden i realize I'm doing such a NO HUMAN thing because i wanna choose the easy way out, and i don't wanna hurt myself...
I'm cruel...
I know that..
And i promised myself that this will be the last time I'm gonna be selfish and think like that....

Everything has got a reason.. but i believe that i can change the reason if i want...

Watched Sex & The City earlier...
The movie is good....
I seriously love the way the girls think...
And I respect that Carrie's character..
She was so honest with her husband..
Although she know it's gonna hurt him....
And her husband was so understanding that he forgave her after much thinking....

It's all about forgiving and understanding in a relationship...
No matter what happens, we gotta just forgive..
Although it may be hard to forget, but why not try forgetting it to get to the next stage in life....



AGAIN... this song is just so lovely...
Read the lyrics sweetie.... Muacks...=)

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

In Love

This song is so what i feel now.....

Haunting Lover

****Based on a 1940s true story, a large medicinal manufacturing plant in Guangzhou, "Kwong Cheong Tong", is hiring. With his luck, Leung Kwong (Vanness Wu) is hired simply due to his resemblance to their missing Third Master of 10 years. While at work, Leung encounters strange incidents one right after another. In one case, Leung was attacked and was saved by the mysterious Fu Rong (Li Xiao Lu) who claims that Leung is actually Third Master who she has been waiting for. To get to the bottom of the mystery of the missing Third Master, Leung goes to Singapore with his girlfriend, Hsiao Chen, to find the truth. Their trip only brings them back to the original source, "Kwong Cheong Tong". The longer it takes to Leung to solve the mystery, the deeper he falls into the persona as Third Master**** (taken from Yahoo Movies)



It's more of a split personality movie.... I find the movie ok ok only.. and Vanness acted so STUPID.. haha.. like DAI B... but still handsome with his single eye lid eyes...
I WILL FOLLOW YOU EVEN IF I'M A GHOST...!!!!!!!

I think the best show he has acted in is still.... *Drum roll*----- AUTUMN'S CONCERTO... damn nice...

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My lovely scar is getting better...
Went to the hospital yesterday for follow up..
Just to let the doctor look at my currently UGLY scar...
she pulled out the plaster....
and said my scar is healing very fast..
Yalar.. SIAPA SAYA...
masuk hospital's operation room and the doctor said "eh, patient ni betul2 appendix operation ke.. tak macam sakit pun".... wahahaha....
AKU Nie pandai tahan sakit lar...

I hate taking bath without a plaster.. because i take long baths and when the water touches my scar, it gets a little soft.. (fell down before?? when it dries and when u take bath, that is how it feels)... so it scares me... and I never dare rub the towel through my scar...
A scar that will be with me all my life...
I hope that I'll eventually forget about it and move on....

After movie and i gotta get back to work now....
I'm so lazy to work.....

Buh Bye......

Sunday, June 20, 2010

Fun together

Watched Toy Story 3 Last night...
NICE NICE... Love Love....
Funny Funny....

Wanted to watch Karate Kid so badly.. TWICE also can't buy ticket....
Sad sad...
will try again....
Life is all about doing what we know is best that will make us happy...

Mr. Lotso is BAD....
After going through bad times and got help from woody.. he still wanna do bad...
BAD BEAR...
Never buy that stupid Pinky Purple bear...
Haha.....

I love the dance Buzz did when he SPOKE SPANISH....
So funny and cute....

After buying the tickets went for dinner...


Coffee Float..
Taste like normal coffee.. and with ice-cream up there..
RM 4.50...
Buttered Chicken Diced with Rice...
I find the chicken kinda friend too long because it was too hard to bite and it tasted more like "lai liew ha" (prawn).... too much of the gravy made it harder to finish it..
Too full after finishing this...
RM 9.60

Luncheon Meat & Cheese Foca****
RM 6.20
Water with Lemon HOT
RM 4.20
(no idea what is that foca thingy.. i think is the name of the cheese)...
It is nice.. the cheese was so cheesy and sedap..
The bread was not too hard.. just nice to be cut and chewed...
Lemon water was kinda sweet...

After eating.. we still had time and we walked to memory lane...
and guess what i bought...
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Hehe... my new pinky toy....
and a small pouch to keep things.....
=)

Friday, June 18, 2010

cloud 9

5th day after operation, i was roaming around...
Wasnt at home most of the time...
Going out eating and watching movie...
Hardly stayed at home...
Not at home means, at mum's office working...
Lucky i dunnit to wake up at 9...
Waking up at 12 every day is so happy....
And i hate it that i cannot stretch too much...
what if suddenly the wound open up and start bleeding....
wahaha......

Doctors out there, can you explain to me, WHY my mother cannot be in the CURTAIN when the doctors are checking on me??? i wanted to ask this Q for a very long time.. but haven't really get the chance....

Watched PRINCE OF PERSIA.... I suddenly felt that Prince DASTAN was TOO handsome... lame me....
A- TEAM was good... i laughed so much... and lucky my wound don't hurt anymore.. or not I'll be having tough time laughing with the pain...
NANNY McPHEE & THE BIG BANG.. Small c and a BIG P... haha... it was great... and the cinema hall was freaking COLD....
KILLERS... good movie too... father in law and son in law wanna kill each other... NO MORE LIES in the house....
HAPPY GO LUCKY.... Stomach pain also still laughed... If you are happy, you will always be lucky.. think positive....

Next on list is TOY STORY 3... SEX & THE CITY 2...THE HAUNTING LOVER...THE KARATE KID...SHREK FOREVER AFTER...MARMADUKE...

Money money.. come to mummy.... haha.....
I live for today.. what happens tomorrow is a mystery....
So come baby.. lets enjoy together... =)

Thursday, June 17, 2010

Hospital is not where i'm suppose to be...

Hospital experience sucks....
Told my sister before that the only time I'll be going to a hospital and staying there is when i am gonna go for labor...
but i went in for appendix operation on the 28th of MAY 2010....

I felt the pain on my right side(near the pelvic bone) (i think a little higher) when i was sitting for my FINANCE paper...
The pain came on and off...
So I ignored the pain....

After exam, sat and waited for the rest, the pain came again..
But being me.. STEAMBOAT after exam with college mate was planned 1 week before exam...
Cannot miss...
Then just walked with them and while walking towards the car... (going up and down because Orange's car was far from the LRT station) i felt pain again..
I was like.. who cares lar... because the pain was a little like stomach pain but it's on the  right side.. and since i din vomit.. no diarrhea.. no fever.. (or was i a little hot that time??)....DIDN'T bother the pain...

After makan... OMG.. YZ and Orange cracked a joke... The reaction of Orange( another post OKAY)...
Laughing brought back the pain again... and i was a little worried by that time... I was in SUNWAY and i did not drive... so i gotta follow majority....

By the time i reached home.... it was 12 AM... 28th of MAY.... told dad about it..
Immediately went to the hospital and doctor also press here, press there... and got admitted at  3AM....
 Blood.....

On Dripz..


They gave me a bed in the emergency and made me sleep there...
OMG... LIGHT...NOISE... i cannot sleep with this two...
My biggest enemy during sleep time...
So I was awake the whole night... watching all the patients coming in and out.. nurse walking up and down...
NIGHTMARE... cannot sleep even though i was so tired....
Till 6 am.... asked the nurse if my blood test already came out or not...
The nurse said "sudah, tapi kena tunggu doctor"....
Aiseh.... doctor came around 7 am and press here, press there.. and went off....
After 2 hour i asked the nurse "kak, sekarang tunggu apa lagi??"
"tunggu surgical doctor datang"....
MAK AI..... this means operation lar...

My left hand kena cucuk masuk DRIPS....
I think masuk 3 to 4 bottle (3am until 12pm)
My experience to toilet have never been this BAD...
I gotta hold on to the drips because there is no place to hang... and if my hand don't put properly, blood will flow out again.... =(....

lucky mum and dad came before the surgical doctors came....
they we sitting with me.. and guess what.. the women sleeping beside me in the emergency ward was my dad's aunty...
WAHHAHAHAHAH.....
So much to say....So much to talk....

Me in pain also terus layan lar. apa nak buat.. old lady...

So the moment the surgical doctors came..
They also press here, press there AGAIN....
SAKIT lar....

Immediately said they will send my name up to queue for operation...
OMG..... my dad sumore dare eat my favourite biscuit in front of me.. (no food and DRINK's from 3am)...=(
1pm... time to change into the patient's cloths... Lucky mum was there to help me.. Just imagine having the drips on stilllll............

 Got changed ady... they had to put that NAME thing on my hand 
(just like a new born baby)

They put me on the bed.. all the way from the emergency to the operation waiting room....=(.... i dunno why, but i had tears in my eye... wahahaha..... damn malu lar... the nurse was laughing at me and said "jangan takut lar.."... i wasn't scared of the operation.. of the pain..... because i jenis tahan pain.... but no idea what's with the tears... wahahahaha..... malu malu......

1pm till 3pm... waited in the waiting room... SEJUK.... the doctor came and told me what was the operation gonna be like... so no issue.. i think i slept and got up many time during the waiting period... 15 minutes before the operation, the doctor came and took my signature for the anesthetic form... so i told him i wanna go to the toilet and they brought the BOWL... OMG.. the moment i saw the nurse brought this bowl thingy, i told her "tak pe lah... i memang tak boleh nak kencing pakai ini, i kencing lepas operation je lah....".... she also smiled...

3.15pm.... pushed me into the operation room.... it looked a bit like an aquarium... blue and white... with big2 machines.... IT WAS FREEZING.... toooo cold.... but none of the doctors were feeling cold (i guess).. wahaha... they put this hot air blanket on me... this time, they poked another needle into my right hand... OMG... 3 needle on my arm till now.. but 2 needle stayed permanent.. i think it only took me 5 second to SLEEP.... i tried to keep my eyes open.. but gave up at last....

5pm...  i opened my eye again... i couldn't talk.. because there was this BIG phlegm in my throat...
and i started feeling the uneasiness..pain... headache... dizzy.. sleepy.... it IRRITATED ME so much...
i hate being so useless.....so not in control of my own situation....

Was brought to the ward.... no idea what happened.. because i slept... but i know my parents were there because i saw them when i came out from the recovery room...
Lucky it was public holiday.. siblings came after that.....
Great.....
All i did was sleep.... i hardly remembered what i said.... until 9 something...
was quite awake.....

 When i came out, my left hand's needle was OFF.. 
(lots of blood when i took the plaster off)

Right hand with dripz again....

The arm where they took blood TWICE...

Nurse came during midnight to change the drip and i woke up....
Never liked to have movements around me or noise...
Next day friends came over....

WING...My stomach paining.. not my hand.. still can eat lar...
haha.. she offered to feed me my porridge....

Doctor said if i don't vomit after eating then i can leave the hospital...
YEAH...!!!!! that afternoon i left....

 Back home with my lappie...

2 week ++ has gone... i can walk and.. i'm fine now...
Many people said i lose weight already.. and I DID....
my jeans and shorts are a little loose now..
Should not put on anymore weight...
wahahaha.........=)
No face available because i look horrible....
Only miserable PAIN hands.....

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

Yes I Understand...!!!!!



XIANG TING DE HUA...
So meaningful...
This show on NTV7 is great....
So much of obstacles in all kind of relationship..
Mother & daughter..
Father & daughter
Girl & boy...
Friends....

Great show...
But it has ended
The new show on tv.. Age of Glory II seems okay...
but talks more on the OLDEN days story...

*****
I know i've been missing more than 1/2 months.. but will catch up soon with things...
Been busy with many things...
and was out most of the times....

Have a great month people.. =)

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