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Saturday, May 29, 2010

In PAIN

I'm BACK...
From the hospital....
And I'm in pain now.. but definitely better than yesterday which i hate most (after operation)
Will write about that tomorrow...
Now all i wanna do is take my bath which is FORBIDDEN... so i gotta wipe myself only....=(
So many pills to take..
Kena cucuk on both hands... :'(....



Now Hollywood wants to make you think they know what love is.
But I'm a tell you what true love is.
Love is not what you see in the movies.
Its not the ecstasy, its not what you see in that scene
you know what I mean? I'm telling you right now, true love is sacrifice.
Love is thinking about others before you think about yourself
Love is selfless not selfish. Love is God and God is love.
Love is when you lay down your life for another
Whether for your brother, your mother, your father or your sister
Its even laying down your life for your enemies,
That's unthinkable, but think about that
Love is true
Think.

Chorus
I'll put you in front of me
So everybody can see
My love, this is my love
I know that I'll be alright
As long as you are my guide
My love, this is my love

Love is patient, love is kind.
It does not envy, it does not boast
It is not proud. Love is not rude, it is not self-seeking
It is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs
You see love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, it always perseveres
Love never fails. Love is everlasting
Its eternal, it goes on and on, it goes beyond time
Love is the only thing that will last when you die
But ask the question why? Do you have love?

Chorus
I'll put you in front of me
So everybody can see
My love, this is my love
I know that I'll be alright
As long as you are my guide
My love, this is my love

There is no greater love than this than he who lays down his life for his friends
Now are you willing to lay down your life for your friends?
You're probably willing to lay down your life for your mother
your father, or your best friends
But are you willing to lay down your life for even those that hate you?
I'm going to tell you who did that
The definition of love is Jesus Christ. He is love
The nails in his hands, the thorns in his brow
Hanging on a cross for your sin my sins
That is love he died for you and me while we still hated him
That is love
God is true love, and if you don't know this love
Now is the time to know, perfect love

Chorus
I'll put you in front of me
So everybody can see
My love, this is my love
I know that I'll be alright
As long as you are my guide
My love, this is my love
(repeat)

Thursday, May 27, 2010

re-do mistake = STUPID

12 hours to finance exam...
Leaving at 11 am.. because i've got a driver to fetch me...
and we gotta fetch another friend which stays close by...
haha.. the driver is not my bf.. because he want's his 12 hours sleep like how he used to sleep and i will get up early in the morning waiting to see his name appear in the ONLINE section on msn...
That was 5 years back...
Definitely it won't be the same anymore, because i can always call him..
i don't need to be that poor girl siting in front of  the computer waiting for him..

How lame can i be that time???

The puppy love eventually turned into real love...
How real can it be???
As real as i bring him home and introduce him to my parents...
yeah.. after dating him for 3 years... and i was so ready to let him meet my parents....

I believe in taking things slow...
We never know what will happen tomorrow...
Was talking to him earlier and i asked him a Q...
i'm not gonna reveal the Q here..
But somehow i LOVE the answer i got from him...

Yeah....
I'm just waiting for everything to settle down...
So that i can make the right decision....
And i seriously hope, whoever is trying to start a fight...
PLEASE think about everyone.. because you are not only hurting one person...

Always put yourself in the other person's shoe and then only make the decision...
never think that FOR YOU 1 RULE, FOR OTHERS ANOTHER RULE...
don't forget that you gotta pay a price for all your doings....

Learn from mistakes...
Don't re-do the mistakes because then, you are CALLED STUPID.....

For the love you have for yourself.. learn to love others too.....

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

whatever....

Whatever I'm feeling now is just so stupid...
So disturbing...
So sad...
Yeah...
A little of this feeling..
A little of that feeling...
I'm so OUT....

I'm so dead...
I'm just waiting for exams to finish...
And i'm so scared...
YEAH... scared.....
Why scared???
OMG...... trust me...
I don't wanna talk about it...
I don't wanna think about it...
It scares me so much....

AArrrggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
I think I've been screaming on my blog too many times....
Heong said that i'm too MUSHY... (yuk ma)...
Haha... what kind word is mushy???
Is the word real?? because i hear it always....
whatever...

I think i'm missing him again....
too much for him to memorize....
Too much for me to think...

WHATEVER.....
I wanna cry AGAIN....
aarrrggggggghhhhhhhhhhhh............

Monday, May 24, 2010

what is it??

I've got no idea, but something is bothering me too much...
My heart is aching a little.. NOT HEART ATTACK...
i duno...
i feel like crying...
NO IDEA WHY....
and I'm irritated with this feeling...
I hate it when i dunno what is going on...
Arrgggggggghhhhhhhhhhhh....

Went for class...
trust me, I've got no idea what FINANCE is all about..
and i hate this too...... aaargggghhhhhhhhhh

i've never been this lost.. my feelings, my mind....
OMG... help me.. writing this just makes my eye teary...
WHY????

Mr. R asked me to find a person to talk to so that i can feel better...
i dunno who to talk to now..
I just wanna cry now....
I can't be calling my bf now..
He is busy studying..
I'm not gonna distract him because of my own emo issues....

I must learn to deal with my emotions...
I must learn...
I will learn....
I just want this whole exam to finish fast..
and definitely i wanna pass all...
no fails....
no resits....
NOTHING....

i wanna get back the happy me..
not this stressed me...
i don't like to think so much.....

aarrRRRGGHhhhGHHhAARRRrrgghhhHHhhh.................................

I wish i know what is bothering me now...
I really wish i know....

Sunday, May 23, 2010

Fish Head Noodle

This place is located in TAMAN DESA-OLD KLANG ROAD...
I seriously have got no idea how to go there.. because my sister took us there...
If you want to know the location and road map check out on

7 of us want and we only ordered 4 drinks.. all share share MAH....

 The normal fish head... fried fish with mee hoon... i find the taste a little different.. not enough salty.. the salty vege is suppose to be salty, but guess the salt was drained out before cooking...
Scared of bone try the fish head noodle with NO BONE..
BELOW

 
The boneless fish paste noodle 
This fish has only got the meat and no BONE... 
the meat taste like the MEAT IN YONG TAU FOO...
if you are afraid of being POKED by the bone, choose this...

The left bowl is small and the right bowl is BIG

Price : 3/5
Place : 4/5
service : 4/5
Pay immediately after ALL the food is served on the table...
And it is written on the wall that "ALL TABLE IS TO BE SHARED"....

Dramatic



Haha... MR.V commented on my status on facebook....
AM I BEING LAME????
YES....

just finished watching the tamil movie on tv...
OMG...tamil drama is so dramatic...
really beh tahan....

I think till today, the only tamil movie which i will watch and never clicked fast forward button is MUTHU...
the rest, i sure fast forward when the song starts...
The worst is when the movie is LIVE on tv or cinema...
AArrrrgggghhhhhhhhh...
cannot fast forward the song..
and some song really eeewwwwwwwww............

haha...i know if you are an indian you gonna SUE me kau kau...
but don't you think the same??
some times really cannot tahan...
hehe.... =) peace....

gonna go do some questions....
i don't wanna fail...=)

In my Head



Okay, i had revision class for FINANCE yesterday until 6.30pm...
Portfolio theory and CAPM....
This part time lecturer MR. VEE is quite good...
He looks like THE ROCK..
haha... but he's got tummy and i LOVE HIS SHOE.....

He explains the theory in simple words....
He repeated more than 10 times that -
" I'm only talking to the weak students... if you are strong in FINANCE, don't listen to me...",
" i am here to only help you to PASS, i can't be teaching you from start"..
" 5 days more, this is not the time for you to look at your textbooks and notes... or you will FAIL"...
" revise all the questions, understand the calculations and memorize the theory"
I think i understand a little bit of portfolio theory and CAPM now..
r = rf + B(rm - rf)....
wahaha... the CAPM formula....

So, i did not meet up with Mr.B yesterday because i met up with Mr. M....
wahahah.. and Mr.B called me the day after my blog post and said, "wah lau, need to scold me or not??"
Haha... he know that i was joking...
Neway he said he'll meet me after the 27th... because according to him whatever he say is gonna annoy me.... That is what he said.. and he don't wanna see me fail any of my papers because of being TOO ANNOYED...
At least now i know a little on what he's gonna say like ANNOY... ahha...
Mr.B, i'll try not to get annoyed since you already said that i might get annoyed with whatever you are gonna tell me...
LAP you... hwahahhahaha....

3 people i know is gonna sit for exam starting tomorrow...
GOOD LUCK.... make sure you all pass....
and sister, if you don't pass i'll smack your SIFAT....
wahahaha.....

Friday, May 21, 2010

Audit DIE

I tell you...
AUDIT SUCKS big time...
Worse than CIMA and CIFA...
I read audit risk, evidence, then the fundamentals and all...
and mane tau 6 questions was about IAASB, engagement letter...Internal control.. Internal Audit- independence and corporate governance... going concern...implicit and explicit assertions..
OMG... but lucky i still remember a little from class lectures and that is how i answer all my question...
25marks per question and i am only asking for 10marks per question...
Pass pun jadilah....
I am not asking much.....

I don't want to go through this stress again...
On the way to college in the bus, I felt like crying already...
1st time in this 23 years... i'm crying because of exam...
HOW SAD....
aaarrrrrrrgggggggggghhhhhhhhhh...

Even my bf was saying the question paper is SIAO 1....
nothing about audit risk and evidence.....
It's okay... It's okay...
At least i knew how to answer 4 question out of 6 which is the requirement....

Or not i surely DIE.....

*****
Next post is about fish noodle in Taman Desa....

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Truly, Madly and Deeply

WING and WINNIE are just wondering what's going on with me....Haha... WING, trust me.. It's not anything..
Just that this is the 1st time I'm feeling scared for exams...
Never felt this bad in my whole 23 years time...
Felling emo too....

Cry easily..I'm a girl ler...
So i cry no 1 will say anything..
Hehe....
Don't worry.. 2 more papers to go and we are all free until the result comes out...

Mr. B called me asking when I'm free...
After 4 years and he is calling me..
Wonder why..????
Summore say wan bring me out for dinner..
Wanna say something very important....
How important can it be that he must see me in person to tell me...
Say wan show me something...
SHOW WHAT???
I hate suspense....
At least give me a preview lor....
But no....
He is so secretive...
he said " if you wanna know, make sure you be ready on Saturday at 7pm..and listen here.. it is very important so don't say NO to me..."
WHAT ON EARTH...!!!!?????@#$%^&*#$%^&
What is more important than me sitting for exam???
OI MR.B.... my last exam on the 27th lar.. cannot wait mer???
You sound so secretive and scary....

Oh my leg hurts....
My tummy hurts...
My head hurts....

But seriously NOTHING hurts now....
Because if i don't get through my exams, my future is gonna be HURT kau kau....



and baby, I'm TRULY, MADLY AND DEEPLY IN LOVE WITH YOU..
Love being in your arms while you sing me a song.. =)
Check out the song... i love.... muacks muacks.....

It's nice to know that you are calling me now...

Monday, May 17, 2010

P.S I LOVE YOU

I love you
I love you
I love you.....
I really really do love you...

I'm gonna watch this movie AGAIN...
It's so touching...
And did i tell that the 1st time i watched this, when the movie started, they we FIGHTING...
OMG>. i started crying from there....
Beginning itself i was crying.. How emo can i be.....
It's okay.. that's because I LOVE YOU.....
Isn't fighting gonna be a part of a relationship.. Haha....



P.S Man

P.S Man....
I so wanna finish this show fast.....
BUT... it is not fully OUT on YOUTUBE....

Enjoy the OST of this drama...

I suspect

I suspect that i'm having brain tumor...
Why do i say so???
because my head pain before and after sleeping...

Sit down also pain..
Stand up do exercise also pain...(suppose to be good for blood circulation)

And earlier when i was doing my CIFA paper, my vision went BLUR for few minutes...
OMG.... i had to take deep breath and drink water....
AAArrrggggggghhhhhhhhh
I was so scared... and i almost forget what to write....

AAArrrggggghhhhhhh..........
What if i die tomorrow???
Haha..... i'm not scared of death...
Must go for a check up after my exams...
At least if that time, doctor say i got 3 months also OKAY LAR...
at least i still got time to enjoy.....

My dad wun bising ask me clean this clean that....
He wouldn't want me to die with him getting angry with me...
Haha...
Then i can roam and NOT COME BACK with the reason I WANNA ENJOY BEFORE DYING....
Okay.. CUT THE CRAP.....

I feel that my CIMA paper was better than my CIFA paper...
How sad.....
I did CFS, CIS and leasing....
CFS and CIS did not balance...
Only correct half....
Hai.......
WHY WHY WHY......

Okay.. no regrets....
Already done...
Cannot redo....

Next is AUDIT.....
Wish me luck AGAIN.....

Sunday, May 16, 2010

Don't be a ROAD HOOLIGAN

It's either you are stupid or i am stupid...
Or maybe.. you are an idiot or i am....
It takes two hand to clap, so i decided to not comment about it at all....

Just had dinner....
Coming back time, saw an accident near my house traffic light....
Everyone stop already and the WHITE car HONDA driver did not see the red light and terus jalan..
Ngam2, the other side car started moving TOYOTA UNSER..
BANG.....

Stupid toyota car don't want to move to the side, and stop in the middle and got down....
make the whole road jam....
Bodoh...
What is there to fight???
If got buy insurance, just tell the fella, MAKE POLICE REPORT AND CLAIM INSURANCE...
Dunit to talk three, talk four.....
Talk so much also no use....
Waste time fighting....
Waste saliva...
raining sumore.. tomorrow sick WORST still....
Then must got to doctor and pay money...

So everyone out there..
If ever you knock or get knocked...
You must not get angry or scared...
Park your car at the side...
Then get down...
Then go and talk to the other fella...
If you knock, tell they person, SORRY, we shall make the police report and claim insurance...
Take down the car number plate and hand phone number in case...
PLEASE BE SMART... miss call the number immediately so that you confirm the phone number is REAL...

If you get knocked, please take deep breath, because i know you will be VERY ANGRY....
Then get down and ask, YOU KNOW YOU ARE WRONG RIGHT???
If he say yes, you ask him, wan pay or wan claim....
If claim, go make police report and claim, if no claim also go make police report because that person MIGHT LIE TO YOU.. and he might make false report on you.... (some people are just IDIOTIC)...
If he say you are wrong, then you tell him on his face, you dowan fight and terus take down car number and phone number also....

See, so easy.. That's why you buy car insurance...
Dunit to take parang and stick to whack people....

Be a good citizen...
Don't be a HOOLIGAN..

small matter

CIFA is just another crap paper which is annoying my life for now...
Sitting on my bed, with the lights off...
I hardly can see the letters on my keyboard because it's being reflected using the screen light...
i wish my keyboard is like my phone...
keyboard with lights..
Yummy.... im crazy....
It'a a keyboard for god sake.. and i'm saying yummy...

Crazy crazy...
I was talking to a crazy guy earlier on the phone...
He's going mad now..
all because of a girl....
For god sake..
a girl made him so SICK in his mind....

I did not say anything to him,
Because i know all he wanted was a listener...
And not a mother to nag and nag to ask him to forget the useless girl who made his life so miserable...
Because like what he said.. she only made him feel guilty about things..
And all she wanted was to make him feel guilty... and gulity and guilty....
I've got no idea why is she doing this...
Neither does the guy know why...
I wonder what kinda happiness and enjoyment does she get from making him guilty..

She is so mad.. and so is he..
haha.. two mad people .....

And wei, i tell you now, no point making yourself mad for a girl who threatens to delete you in her life if you leave her...
who threatens to tell all your friends to not be friends with you if you leave her...
and who threatens you if you don't be with her...
She is so childish...
And if you are a man...
Just let go of all the friends who want to listen to her..
Because this friends are just not worth it..
If they are your real friends... they will support you and make you strong and not take sides...
Because that is what a friend will do for another friend...

I've only seen this girl on photo and met her once...
And that one time can really know what kinda person she is..
Queen control... unworthy... she will also ask you to eat shit if she wants....
OMG... i saw her once and dun dare go out with her anymore....
Sorry dude...
She is seriously scary....and MAD....
hehe.....I'M BAD....

I'm not judging her... but just stating facts.....
I really hope she can just carry on her life without hurting this poor guy anymore....
say only love him.... but always want to make him guilty....
everyday also want to cry....
eh dude.... i'm not asking you to leave her.. but i'm telling you,, if you wanna run, you better run before it's too late..
Then she come and threaten you saying you slept with her.. then you die....
Then sumore she will make big HU HA....

Scary lar.... i tell you hor, lucky you din give her my number...
or not i sure die... she will scold me saying why i hanging out with you..
Talking on the phone with you....
haha......

Oi.... don't feel sad anymore....
remember i told you this quote earlier...
If she is yours, she will come back to you..
If she did not come back (with a better attitude), she is not yours to begin with....

SMILE..=)....
I'm gonna sleep..
Tomorrow is another studying day....
Monday exam....
arrrggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhh.......
Smile okay.... it's a small matter.....

Saturday, May 15, 2010

Unexpected



When love comes, it rushed into me like the Tsunami...
Trust me.. it came unexpectedly....
There were obstacles...
Parents...
Friends were like "YOU SURE"...
Haha... i think the best reaction i got from is miss T when i asked her about him....
OMG... haha.. I will never forget..
Never....

Now 5 years have gone...
I'm still in love...
But things have changed...
We changed.....
just when everything is in place, something came crushing in....
I'm not blaming anything..

Because it gave us strength to know how deep is our love....
And now, we know how much we need each other more...
we know we can't leave this...
It has already be a part of me.....

LOVE is what we feel....
Right the baby????

********************************************
CIFA CIFA CIFA.....
My head is all about consolidated income statement....
I hate to calculate shares..
Hate it...

*******************************************
Watched P.S Man until episode 11 and am still waiting for the rest of the episodes...
It's not out in YOU TUBE yet..
So i gotta just wait...
Meanwhile study lor..
What to do....
No other options..

*****************************************
You are one step ahead of me..
Congratulations... =)

Friday, May 14, 2010

Tonight

Tonight, i'll celebrate my love for you.....
My mind is full of crap, bullshyts which is so irrelevant to CIFA..
Not about inventory, cash flow, income statement or anything which is closely related...

It's far away from what I'm expecting..
But i know, tonight is gonna be a good night..
I wanna eat steamboat..
But seriously telling, haven't been having mood to eat..

Just like last night..
My mum bought nasi lemak..
was kinda hungry..
but when i open, i only ate 2 mouth of the rice and just kept it aside..
No idea, what's really going on.....

Maybe it's time for DIET without me really initiating anything...
hehe... THAT'S goood....

Good Morning

Only slept for 8 hours and i'm up already.....
TOO early... but it's okay.. I wanna watch P.S Man now....
It's very interesting...
It's almost like Autumn Concerto, but with a little twist...
Got LENG LUI model in the movie....

In this movie also got XIAO XIAO BING...
and he's having diabetes too... (something like AC right???)
Wonder in real life got such thing or not.....

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Sometimes in life, if we know that the certain thing is not ours, we should learn to let go..
No point holding on to it and making ourself suffer....

What we want may not be what we get...
What we get, may not be what we want...
But if that is already yours, keep it.. treasure it...
Love it... and no matter how much you don't like, try to like it..
You may see something good in it....

If it is not your, you can only see it. don't touch it.. it might burn you....
Don't run for it..
Don't fight for it..
Don't snatch it...
Just don't do anything that will hurt you....

I'm happy with what this certain guy told me..
So i know, it is mine..
No point wanting to give it away when i know, it's gonna be mine..
Forever...
Yeah.. and i'm happy at how things are...

Probably, a little more time will make things better....
All we need it to think...
Yeah.. it may hurt a little, but definitely a big gain in the future...

Thank you god...
You've been so good to me...
I know, you know what i want in life, and you've given me the best..
Not gonna complain anymore..
I'm just gonna keep it by myself and treasure it....
Love you god.... MUacks.....

Thursday, May 13, 2010

DEAD

The moment i saw the CIMA question paper, i was like DEAD...
trust me... 5 question do 3....
all i did was theory....
write and write until my palm was sweating....
No time to stop writing...
Just imagine a 2 hours and 15 minute paper.... (some hanky panky in between)
I changed my pen for every question...
Guess my pen was exhausted too....
Ink like gonna habis.....

And none of the things that i read and memorize came out...
Except for executive compensations scheme which i read but did not memorize kau kau...
The other two question on Customer Profitability and Management control was GOOD....
If i don't pass, i really dunno what to say already... 66 marks just enough to eat...
I'm only expecting another 10 marks from The executive compensation scheme question...
Used up all 8 pages of the answer booklet....

The other 2 questions was about real option and EVA calculation which many of us bising that lecturer did not concentrate on.. And was not taught how to do that EVA calculation...
Hai.. not like i can get back the paper and redo or whatsoever....
So now that it's already done.....forget about it.. next in line is CIFA... on Monday....

The moment i got out of the exam hall, i forgot everything about CIMA...
I don't even remember what Q, got how many marks....

Now that i slept and got up, better still...
head is blank except for a very stupid DREAM which is making me feel like OMG....
She is a stupid IDIOT....
I think it's KARMA...
So i'm gonna let it be....
Never keep anything that will only give you TROUBLE...

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

Wakauz....

Done with my EVA memorizing the definition.. explanation.. adjustments... formula.... and a little here and there...
I've been playing whole morning..
And I'm still playing a little now.. (by writing this post)...
Reading Balance ScoreCard now.....
Soon to declare dead...
Both my sister said that if i die, they are just gonna throw me into the sea..
Feed the fishes.... Die also must do good...
What to do.. I'm too good a person..
Everytime also think about others that at the end of the day, i hurt myself back....
It's okay.. Human mar.. What i don't like, i don't do to others lor.....

Okay..This post will be updated when i finish every 1 chapter...

9.34pm...
i'm not done with BSC yet... but read 4 key already.. the financial, customer and internal business process...
Left with memorizing the Innovation and learning perspectives....
then i can jump to another topic called transfer pricing....
Blame the person who is chatting with me now....
Arrrggghhhhh... loaded with too many WORDS in my brain....
Just wanna vomit all out on the paper tomorrow and DELETE all and insert new info...
Good good...
Haha.. praising myself...
Damn siaon.....

Okay enough for now.. back to my papers...



LOVE LOVE lovveeeeeee

Done with BSC and EVA....
starting with ABC
Damn.. looks like NO SLEEP tonight....
I'm gonna go and WRITE and throw the answer booklet to the invigilator and say GOODBYE...
Balik and tido..
But i'm missing my bed now...
aaarrgggghhhhhhhhh.....

Spying

Oh My..
Is there someone spying on me???
That'z scary...

I'M LAZY....
I'm Super lazy now..
I don't wanna study...
But i wanna pass...
Is there anything like this???
Okay.. i just found out that they did not check my ID yesterday..
So is there anyone who can volunteer to sit for my CIMA exam paper????

This is how UOG's exam answer booklet looks like....
Nowadays wan to take picture without people knowing also CANNOT..
Because stupid NOKIA got no SILENT function for camera.....

Just when the Invigilator said stop writing,
I took out my phone and captured this....
You see the WHITE tape towards the right, we gotta write our name there and SEAL it so that markers cannot see our name....
Haha.... 
MR.S who sat beside me asked , "you need or not??"
Haha... i just smield at him..
OF COURSE NEED LAR....
I wanna write in my blog mar....

I hate the answer booklet... The Spacing was SO BIG.....
So my writing was BIG and ROUND...
Tomorrow is CIMA....
Wish me luck AGAIN....
Tadah..>!!!!!!

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

I can't live without you...



CIMA CIMA CIMA.....
Okay, the above song got nothing to do with CIMA..
Nowadays songs which i post here, just shows what i feel...
Easier to express it that way then to write it so long and people still dont get my message..??
THAT SUCKS...

Oh yeah, was talking to someone about my blog and suddenly now the person want's my blog add..
OMG... so many vulgar words..
Wait.. not many.. Only the F-word.....
Yeah... but the F word is enought to kill me right???
Fine.. guess even if im angry from now on, I cannot use the F word anymore...
Damn... (is Damn a vulgar word too)???

My blog does not really represents what i'm really are in the real life...
i don't use F in every little word i say...
I respect elders...
Thats why i've got good parent and they love me... except for sometime me being stubborn....

The 1st Q my mum asked me when i came home was "how was your paper"???
My answer was OK LAH...
And she said.. Haiyah, you always say OK OK.. but i know you can sure pass...
OMG, mum, you just don't know how hard the paper is.. CIMA is worst....
And i'm still wasting my time writing a post here....

Too bad.. CIMA sucks till i'm so irritated with the paper and i'm writing a post now...
I just want to pass....
I don't ask much.....
PLEASE god....
BORDER line also can....
Please please please.. pretty please... for the sake of the blue sky..
for the sake of the rain.. the sun..
Please let me pass.... but if can pass with flying color's I LAGI HAPPY....
Haha.....

 Enough... i'm gonna start studying now.. TOO MUCH THEORY FOR THIS PAPER...
Can't do calculation also, at least must score the theory parts...
Bf, said i'm too dumb...
OMG... he was so right... I feel like is so stupid now... OMG OMG OMG.....
Please god, please let me pass so that i can tell him I'M NOT DUMB and show him that i PASSED my papers....
Haha....
BUH BYEzzzZZZZZz..............

Turning point

Just when i was thinking to myself that i did a big mistake..
But now, i'm happy that i made the mistake....
Just like i said... i can't rewind it..
I gotta just live with it, and i'm lucky that it turned out RIGHT....
Thank you god, i know with you, wrong also can be right....
I know what you are telling me (just when i write this)
You are telling me that, "That does not mean that you can keep making mistake"...
I'm always right when you are with me...
Thank you....

So one paper DONE..... SFM BYE BYE...
Mr.V wrote on Facebook that he is ready with his RED PEN...
Good luck Mr. V in marking my LOUSY handwriting answer...
hehe... But i believe my writing is definitely better that the doctor's writing, so you dunit to get your cousin sister to see my paper... BIG and ROUND writing....

4 more to go.. CIMA is day after tomorrow(THURSDAY)...
Dying paper...
Hai.... i'm scared....
I think 1st time in my life, I'm scared for EXAM...
Last exam in my life (i believe lar)...
My heart was beating so fast... Scared lor...
Damn scared....
Subha and Nages wanted to kill me (i think) because i kept asking them what was CG before going into the exam hall...

Now that it's done...
I'm not gonna think of SFM...
I should start dreaming about CIMA...
Transfer pricing, EVA, Performance Measurement....
DIE....

Monday, May 10, 2010

Sometimes in life, we think that we did a decision that we might regret later on..
But i know, even if i regret, i can never rewind it.
So i might as well just forget about it, and continue living...

My sister is happily watching the BTS(behind the scene) of XIA YI ZHAN, XIN FU...
OMG, i wish i was in her shoe now..
NO exam to think off..
All she does is get up and "LAPTOP HER I COME"...
hai...
wait lar...
in JUNE....
I'm waiting...
tomorrow is my first paper...
I'm never gonna regret anything...

My concentration was disturbed earlier..
BUT NVM...
I'm feeling much better now....

I should just continue my studying session now...

Random

Exam is TOMORROW.... wish me luck..
If you don't wanna wish me also, dunit curse me OKAY...

Mothers day was fun.. Went up to Genting...
Went to gamble and also Karaoke...
Now back to studying and dying....
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Thank you to all my friends who cared so much of how i felt...
Yeah, i cannot explain anything to you guys until i settle my own feelings...
There's this human who just can't stop annoying my life..
And whatever written here, is meant to be here only...
Yeah, in two months time maybe my employer is gonna find out about my blog too..
But who cares..
Most important is i get my bloody job done...
So guess, my employer gotta be a VERY GOOD PERSON or I'll be dead too...

I don't believe in deleting post (under some circumstances i will delete), so whatever is here.. will remain here until i close my whole blog, which i know is not gonna happen anytime soon...
Till then, read if you want...=)...

Sunday, May 9, 2010

FUCKING GET LOST...!!!!!!!!!

I seriously don't wanna be bad..
BUT, GET OUT OF MY LIFE NOW...
Everything you do is annoying me....
I know it's wrong for me to react this way..
BUT SERIOUSLY GET AWAY...
GO FAR FAR AWAY PLEASE...
If not for you, i wouldn't be going through this...
I would not need to be BAD...
I really hate you....
BITCH... GET LOST.....

Lamey me..

Guess last night was not the 1st time i ever missed my bf so much and cried...
OMG, I'm so LAME....
And it's not that i did not see him yesterday...
I saw him.
But i still miss him like WHATEVER.. definitely not HELL since i do not miss hell at all....
So I was out with my mum and aunties and uncles and grandma...
3 tables....
He was out with his family..

So no idea why the SO MUCH miss....

Our table was definitely fun...
8 of us.....
my nephew was damn funny.....
OMG, we seriously laughed at his little secrets....

we had 5 season dish...
Then Kam Heong fried LALA
Lotus vege and toufu with TIPU sharkfin (i think so)
Was suppose to have the fish head curry too, but we said dun wan.....
(only old people eat that) hehe....





Yeah, sorry that the food were all eaten half way...
We were too hungry..
And I've decided never to irritate humans who are hungry BY STOPPING THEM JUST BECAUSE I WANNA TAKE A PICTURE OF THE FOODS....

I think i like the lala the best, because it is cooked kam heong style....
Cousin brother in-law from the inside table took another big plate of Kam Heong Lala for us, saying that they couldn't finish it..
Maybe because of the fish head curry... (no picture of it..too far from the other two tables)

Happy mothers day...
My mum is out with my dad..
Haha... Two is awake, the other two siblings is still sleeping..
No idea what time they slept yesterday...
But i was DAMN early to bed....
Have been sleeping around 4 am for the past 1 week..
But yesterday i was too tired..
Headache..
took 1 panadol and SLEPT.....

Got up at 4am.. OMG... and i couldn't sleep back...
DAMN.....
wish i can just disturb and wake people up....
Nah.. I'm very considerate..
always think about what others feel before i make any decision..
Just like i wouldn't want people to disturb my sleep, i wouldn't disturb their sleep....
Only 1 person was online, and itu pun that person was away....
Hai.....
Hate sleeping early....
Guess that it...
AND I'M MISSING HIM NOW...... DDDDD FFFFFFF....
haha.......

Saturday, May 8, 2010

Failed

I've always failed to keep my emotions from you...
Every time you tell me something, and if i'm happy, you can clearly see it on my face..
If i'm sad, You can always read my face...
I hate it...
I hate when i'm upset about something and i can't keep my feelings, my facial expression away from you...
Trust me, i'm trying to feel better after whatever you tell me..
But i just fail....
I can never keep it to myself....

Was watching 1 episode of House and i seriously find the show GOOD....
Yeah, just like watching Grey Anatomy..
That's also a good show....

Hardly watch English DRAMA's....
But some are really worth watching....
With some love, some family, some handsome and beautiful actor and actress....
Great.....

Sometimes i wish i can just shout at you and tell you what i feel, but i always choose to keep it in my heart and just ignore...
Thats because i hope you can be happy....
Just like the show i just watched....
But too bad, i'm not good...
I'm not that GREAT a person....
I'm not willing to share certain things...
No way....

I want it my way....
and I LOVE YOU....

Mother's Day

To me everyday is mothers day...
Because i treat my mother good everyday...
So i wonder what is so different on that day??

Just like my mum said.. If i'm rich, then everyday is Chinese New Year..
Dunit to wait 1 year once...
Everyday is just the same day, you don't only need to wait for that one particular day to be a good child
You dunit to wait for that 1 day to treat your mother to a nice dinner..
You dunit to wait for that one day to buy her a gift..
You dunit to wait for that 1 day to say I LOVE YOU MUMMY...
Because i do it every other days...
So everyday is mothers day.....

If you say my mum will sleep a little late on mothers day..
You are so wrong..
She will still get up the same time...
Haha....
I will still get up the same time....

My mother brings her mum for food on sunday mornings, so on that day also mother's day...

Probably on mothers day, my mum will expect me to get up early and cook her breakfast....
Not sleep until 1 in the afternoon then get up to ask "GOT FOOD AR???"...
But.... aiyah.....Duno lar.....
Will discuss with the rest...
Hehe.....

So tonight, i'll be having dinner with my uncle and grandma.....
Wonder what food...???

I feel like eating Nandos'
I feel like eating Steamboat
I feel like eating Nuggets...
I feel like eating Oats (wonder why???)
I feel like eating Hotdog....
I feel like eating FRUITS....
I feel like drinking MORU...

Wow... so many thing to eat...
Yummy Yummy,......

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I'm getting easily angry for this one thing that i'm suppose to not do so....
I just hope IT will disappear soon...
I just don't want IT to be in my life..
In my daily topic.

I'm sorry if mentioning IT will get you angry..
But trust me... IT is such a pain in the ass HOLE...
And i seriously need to get IT out of my systems...

Friday, May 7, 2010

Realize

Trust me.... After realizing whats going on....
I'm like BLURRED..
All half past 6 story....
So i rather just ignore everything....

Never judge me just by what i'm doing..
Because if you are just not close to me, you will not understand whats going on...
You came by me,
You stood near me (not by me)
You brush you arms against me, making me think that you were sincere,
And then you push me away making me think that i was wrong... WAS I???

You are so wrong...
But i'm lucky, i've got friends who stood by me,
who took the initiative to tell me...
To make me understand certain things..

A friend is not suppose to judge you...
A friend is someone you can lean on when you've got problem..
A friend is someone who will hold your hand when they know you are gonna fall..
A friend is someone you share everything....

Hey, i know it's hard for you..
But trust me... You never knew how hard was it for me.....
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1 night and 5 e-mails from Miss T...
Haiyoh... I just hope i pass my exams...
Nothing else.....
I pity her too....
Guess i gotta just stop playign around and start studying...
Don't wanna see myself DIE in the hands of EXAM PAPERS...

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Girls and Guys, stop thinking to yourself who is Missy A and Mr B...
Because Mr, B has already read my post... and not missy A...
So nothing will be revealed except for this....
I just wanna tell you that, this blog is only for me to write out my thoughts..
Not to bang anyone because these are only words to express my feelings...

Thursday, May 6, 2010

Wrong move

I think i should just stop doing this accounting degree and take up psychology course...
Or is there a Private Investigation course??
I think I'm better at this than the stupid accounts where i don't only learn about Debit and Credit but also learn about Provision of doubtful debts and Bloody Ordinary Share Capital bullshyt...
Just hate this things...

How come when i say i'm correct, you say that i'm wrong, and when it happens, i gotta keep reapeating the sentence where i'll say "i told you so"...
Damn it...
Trust me okay....
Didn't i tell you that this was going to happen??
Never believe me....
So you gotta just bear the consequence...

And seriously stop lying to me...
Because when i know you are lying, i'll jsut say "yea yea" and smile at you..
because i know you are lying to yourself....
BLOODY BODOH....

You can't do anything to save the situation...
Trust me when i say TRUST GOD....
He's got his own mind when he plays with you...
Tell god that, he can play how ever long he wants because at the end of the day, you will still go back to him to cry.. and ask to him to not cry with you that time, because it's time for him to fix up his MESS...

I believe if he ever gives you a problem now, it's to teach you a lesson...
So when he teaches you a lesson, do not blame him, but tell him to guide you out of it..
We are normal human... we make mistake...
But please do not lie to yourself and make the same mistake again....
Sometimes we are so tempted to make the mistake because we find it happy...
Although it is only for a short time...
but trust me, the consequence will not be for a short time, because you will remember this silly mistake of yours for the rest of you life, and one day, you will be thinking to yourself "HOW STUPID WAS I"... and laugh at it.....

Trust me.. I've laugh at certain things which I've done in the past.....
And lucky all that silly mistakes was not a big issue at all....

So learn to talk things out....
Not everyone can help you to overcome you issue...
But there are certain people who will understand you....
Talk to them...
But please do not talk to the ones who will put you into more troubles...

Never ever jump to your own conclusion....
Believe in GOD...

Complicated

You can always think that you lied to me...
But the truth is you lied to yourself...
Today you tell me story A,
Tomorrow you tell me story B,
The next day you tell me story C...
When are you gonna tell me the real story???

Everyone thinks that by lying, they are only lying to the other person..
They fail to realize that they are ONLY lying to themselves....

It might hurt me when i know what you told me all this while is a lie...
But let me tell you that, the lies you've been telling me is eating yourself more than it eats me up....

Come on, be honest.....
And the best part is, i though you guys were friends...
What happened??
How come you left your friend for another friend???
Is this what friendship means to you???
Leaving a friend without telling them why???

Finding new ones and abandoning the old ones??
Then probably they did not mean anything to you...
And missy A, can you have your own say instead of following???
And Mr B, you better explain yourself before it's too late....
You might just lose the chance....

Hai.. complicated post...
Complicated friendship...
Complicated relationship..
Complicated thoughts..
Complicated words...
Complicated humans....
Complicated ME......

So good night to the complicated world...

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

Don't Cry

I've told myself i don't wanna cry over split milk, but i did it again....
It's okay...
No one said big girls cannot cry...
And i'm an over sensitive girl..
So it's okay...
Although i know it's a movie also, i'll still cry because it is so touching....
So it's okay lar...

It's been so long since i walked in the rain...
But i only walked for a while, and ran under shelter when i remembered that i was using WHITE t-shirt...
Hai.... wanted to get wet kau kau....
And now, i'm having FEVER....
My whole body is so hot...
My fingers and toes is so COLD....
Damn..
Nevermind, i'll be alright.....

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

I love him....

Autumn's Concerto's OST

Someday Over The Rainbow

Someone asked me.. "would you like to turn back time if you can??"
And you wanna guess what my answer will be like??
NO... I answered NO...
I'm happy at how things are..
Good family...
Great siblings...
Happy parents..
Good Bf...
Good MiMi, who is now suffering and crying every night...

Why did i choose NO as my answer was because i believe everything have got it's meaning behind it....
If MiMi ever go now, i know god means something..
maybe there would be another MiMi, in this house..
Haha.. But guarantee SHE will never be like my MiMi now...
12 years... Big girl... OLD women to be exact....

Went for SFM last class.. Not even a tips class..
But he did said about spotting some questions which we already ALMOST spotted the same thing...
So nothing great..
But at least, did clear some doubts....

Got back my SFM assingments...
They are so kedekut with 9 marks..
I mean the UK humans.. 9 marks also they wanna makan....

I'm waiting to finish my exams and then enjoy the whole of JUNE..
then only i'll start finding for a job..
I don't wanna rush into the working life...

Then i wanna buy a car.. then a house..
Then get married... then have children..
then be old.. get grandkids..
then DIE....
Haha..
Trust me, even if god take me now, i'm willing to go...
Because there's nothing lacking in my life..

But surely dying now wouldn't be an option...
God said it's too early to even think about it....

We only live life ONCE...
Don't even bother regretting..
Do what you can..
Do what you want..
But don't be stupid to get yourself into trouble...
Listen to your brain...
Listen to your soul...
It will never take you to the wrong path...
Analyze before making a decision..
The good and the bad....
NEVER IN LIFE WILL YOU GO WRONG.....
Trust yourself...
Trust your instinct...
That's the best you can do for yourself....

Monday, May 3, 2010

Lucky...

Falling in love with your best friend can be the best thing..
RIGHT??/

Fine, my guys wasn't my best friend when we first knew each other..
But trust me, we shared what best friends shared even before we were an item...
Haha.. So can i consider him my best friend???
Yes.. He is now my EVER SO BEST FRIEND...
Muacks... <3... =)



Love this song.. Nicey.... =)

Sunday, May 2, 2010

Autumn's Concerto

Slept 12 hours...from 7am until 7pm....
So refreshing and was hungry too.....
Watched 21 episodes of Autum's Concerto....
Damn nice...
Love Van Ness... (that's how they spells his name)...
Good acting.. But he just CAN'T cry...
And i pity the actress...
She cried in ALL episodes....
She looks like BIG S, but she is not....
And the small boy is SO CUTE...

Blurry Photo's.....
Check out the movie...
My mum got addicted too.....
Saturday morning when she woke up, she saw me on the sofa watching and she asked my, why so early??
(she knows that never in my life i'll wake up early)
I din reply her.. Her next q was "you din sleep rite??"
Haha... she said i was stupid...
Sunday morning when she woke up also she saw me...
Haha...
My elder sister is getting addicted too...
But she said wait until her exam finish, then she will watch...
Check out SUBlimesFansub's page if you wanna watch.....
just imagine watching all 21 episodes in 2 days....
haha.....
I had to finish it, or not i will never study...

Exam in 10 days time...
Good..>!!!!!
Pass all and i can set my self free....

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In a relationship, sum1 one must always be waiting....
It's either the girl or the boy...
In a relationship, we must learn to trust each other..
But learn to give some space too...

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