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Sunday, February 28, 2010

My third eye

Okay okay...
I'm suppose to do my assignment...
1 day to go....
Before my lecture give me that "ARE YOU DONE LOOK"..

My third eye belum buka...
Just that my mum was reading this article from today's STAR paper...
And i find it really amazing and interesting...

For a MALAY guy to write and experience this???
It's something very different...
Read it... i don't wanna elaborate too much...

Good Morning

Good to the very morning...
Haha...
Slept like a baby last night...
Cried at 3 in the morning just for water( nah, i din cry, i just got up to find for water)...

Slept until 11...
Syoknye.....
Suppose to start assignment 6 days back..
but I'm still struggling to find relevant points in the journals...
Studying is fun, but it changes my routine, and i hate it.

Was talking to one SAKAI..
And this sakai told me "2 months nie, study kau kau.. after that you can throw away your notes"..
Eh sakai, 2 months is enough to kill me....

Nevermind... I'll just do it for my future..
At least when my kids ask me, "mummy, what is you qualification level??"
I can proudly say "DEGREE.."
Haha.... Not SPM, STPM or DIPLOMA....
Yeah... The word Degree sound better right??

Was kinda busy yesterday...
Not because of assignment..
But shopping...
For the very 1st time, i felt shopping was tiring....

Dad's close relative from India is down..
Not that "org tak bertamdun" kind..
Very civilized...
Very nice..
Happy man...
AND he insisted that he MUST buy us at least 1 baju before he goes back...

And being us...
Have been taught from small to NEVER TAKE ADVANTAGE OF PEOPLE
We kept saying we were busy, which was TRUE...
Hoping he can say, "it's okay, i'll just treat you people to a nice dinner"..
But no...
He kept asking my dad when can he take us KIDS to get the cloths...

At last, we decided yesterday...
AND HE INSISTED that we go to PAVILION...
OMG.... if he choose Midvalley also okay lar...
We can go to JUSCO or maybe ISETAN in Gardens...
BUT PAVILION???
Haha....

It was so crowded yesterday..
Oh yeah.. forgot about something...
My whole family (exclude my dad) was wearing RED t-shirt...
wah lau.... we were like the RED gang.....
It was all coincidence...
See... the happy us in red....

I think my house is a red house...
Even my neighbour claim us as the RED gang....

So went there.... 
[we call him CHITAPAH (dad's bro in tamil)]
He was searching for CAMEL ACTIVE...
He loves that brand... and made sure my bro bought it from there..

We girls went to Parkson..
Nothing nice..
Went to Padini Concept Store..
Nothing great...
He doesn't want us to get a t-shirt..
He want's to buy something OTHER than t-shirt..
At last, small said, why you people din go to FOREVER 21..
Wahlau.... The next thing i thought was "can find for my size mer??"
Haha... at last I bought 1 from there ler....
Now I wun hesitate to masuk lar..
I know sure got my size one......
Maybe not all fashion lar...
Some... Which i would like.....

Today what i'm gonna do is...
Start writing only when everyone goes to sleep...
I don't like the weather...
So HOT..
Cannot tahan....
Cannot concentrate...

**********************************
Today is CHAP GOH MEI....
Girls, if you wanna find husband, go and throw oranges in the river...
Write your name, and you phone number with a pen with will not fade in water..
If you are a guy, throw BANANA.. (haha) so that the girls can identify YOU....
Check THIS out...

****
My 6 sense tell's me that you love me...
And i love you too.....

Friday, February 26, 2010

42

I watched this movie called "indecent proposal" and i would like to quote something from that movie
"Someone once said, if you want something very badly, set it free.
If it come's back to you, it's yours forever.
If it doesn't, it was never yours to begin with"

It's grandma's 80th birthday...
81st in the Chinese calendar and her birthday falls on the 13th day of the Chinese new year..
And i think for the past 3 to 4 years, we always celebrate her birthday in restaurants...
This year no different...
Everyone came...
No one dare to say no..
Haha.....

 
 Green pea biscuit.. 
Brought by my uncle
  
 5 in 1 dish..
  
 Shark fin soup
  
 Steamed fish
  
Duck..
I'm a flower crazy person..
i don't mean the real flower...
The eating flower...
went to 2 other tables to curi makan...
  
 Mushroom with vege..
  
 "long life mee"
  
 all the grandchildren shared and bought this jelly cake
  
 Fish and PIC fruit
 
Pic pau....
After eating was photo session...
Stand until leg also pain..
Yeah.. heals sucks...
And i think i only use heals probably less than 5 times in a  year...
Love normal sandals...

Grandma... "wish you long life, good health and many more great grandchildren"...
Haha.... I love you grandma... Muacks....

****
You are asking for too much and you have done too much.. 
Sorry

Thursday, February 25, 2010

23

Just got back from class..
I'm dead tired....

Couldn't sleep whole night...
It was like something was bothering me...
Not that ghost kinda feeling lar...
Like something wasn't right...
No idea what is it....
I hope everyone on earth is still in good shape....
Yeah... that's the only thing i'll ask god...
Yeah.. pretty lame....
But, isn't that what all of us want...
For our loved ones to be happy no matter where there are... doing what they like....


The last i saw the time on my phone was 3am....
Then thinking that it was almost time to wake up (since i put the alarm at 6.15am)
The time was only 5.11am...
Damn it....
Just when i wanted to fall asleep again, the alarm had to ring...
AAArrrggghhhhhhhhh....
Snooze 2 time... 6.45....
Next when it ring again, i offed it....
Wanted to skip class...
But told myself, enough of this skipping class thingy....
Gotta concentrate....
Can't be failing any of the papers....
Although i don't wanna be an accountant...
I still want my DEGREE... just the certificate will do....

Sleepless night was suppose to start today, but looks like it started yesterday....
Gonna go and sleep...
Gotta re-energize my body to "start night journey" (hoi ye che) to finish up my assignment or MR. Soorya is gonna bising....

And today Mr.V said i got no hope again, just because i ask him to un-highlight his words on the projector..
Me with my Chinese-English " sir, don't highlight, cannot see LER"...
haha.... Just after i said the word LER, then only I noticed-(talking to myself) "hello, you are talking to the lecturer...what is with the LER"... haha....

It's okay... According to Mr.V, one of his student messaged his wife on facebook " Mr.V always tell student's they got no hope... And student's got no hope because the lecturer also got no hope.." such a daring student...

Neway, Mr.V is a nice person.. jokes to much.. have fun too much.. teach also too much...

Okay lar... I wanna go sleep now before i pengsan..
Haha.... which i know will never happen...
Because the god is never allowing me to stay in the hospital except for when I'm in labor pain...

Chiaouz.......
Tata..........
Buhbye...........

5.43pm -
Screw all the academic journal pages...
Some can't even open... and out of date.. can't they re-write it with a new date???
Make my life easier lar...

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

16

Class was normal as usual...
Assignment for Finance is out.. 4000 words..
Wish me luck please...
Gonna have sleepless nights until 26th of April...
then additional sleepless nights until the end of my exam...
Then will be time to find a job..
And lead a good life...
Get married...
Have kids.. grandchildren and great grand children if i am lucky enough to live till that long...
Wahahaha..... i'm dreaming already...
No no.. just imagining and wish it will come true TOO....

Okay, bought a bluetooth earlier....
Went for Sushi Zanmai in Lowyat..
It was a last minute thingy....

Winnie was talking about YEE SANG in sushi KING, since it' gonna end next monday..
Then no1 will be talking about Yee Sang after that....

We were thinking about only 5 of us.. (me, wing, winnie, heong and yzhen)
Then we extended our invitation to the other group (kk,kc,pmun,lau,cecy and raj)
Then Winnie brought her bf too... and Valerie followed us too....
13 of us.... made so much noise...
Talked so much..
Gossip a lot too....
Pay for the bill also expensive.. 
RM 310++ for 13 people..
Okay right???

Me, wing and valerie wrote down our order in a piece of paper..
Scared to pay MORE and LESS..
hehe....
How "kiddo" can we be???

 
 We ordered 2 plate of this... Rm 23.80 for Large plate
 
 

  
 Valerie's unagi rice.. Rm 15.80 for small

  
 Chuka Idako...
  
 Mine, heong and wing's hand roll

  
 Potato Mayo...
  
 Gunkan Sushi...

  
 Wing's unagi with egg rice.. RM 15.80

  
 My ebiko rice with egg RM 8.80..

  
 Winnie's salmon rice....
 
Agedashi Tofu...

After eating, we went to this HP booth at the entrance there...
Made Cecy play the voucher thingy.. 
Signed in to facebook and became a fan of HP just to get a free CUP...
haha.... 
Lame us....

SUMMARY = HAPPY + HAPPY + HAPPY.....

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

15

Someone said"it's hard to confess when you love someone"....
I'm saying "NO, it's not hard, neither it is easy, because all you need is courage"..

What say you?
Do you think it is easy or hard?

I think LOVE IS SIMPLE..
Just like the song "ai hen jian dan" by david tao..

When you love someone, all you gotta do is either
- you be brave and confess it to the other person
- you hide your feelings until the other person confesses (everyone choose this) (and at the end of the day, the other person will be with another person)
- you confess and distance yourself from the person you love (and make them feel guilty)
- you start moving closer until you get the right signal...

I am one weird girl if that is what you wanna call me..
If i like/ love someone i will definitely confess without waiting for the other person...
I remember (that once upon a time) i liked this guy..(you know who??)
Erm... the feeling was strong..
I liked him so much....
I did not wait...
I definitely did not..
Because in one of the conversation WE had...
I told him "I like you.. with the special feeling thingy"...
haha....
He did not give me any response...
He made me thinking "he like me too right?? how come he din say anything??"
The next time I talked to him, i said " if you don't have the same feeling I have, it's okay with me.. we can still be friends..."
Haha... the rest was history

See, it's that simple..
why distance yourself??
why choose to hide your feelings???

If you never say, the other person will ever know....
So be open to yourself...
Be truthful to yourself..
What is there for you to lose??
Nothing....
If you think EGO and PRIDE is more important, than you are so wrong....

Be happy for the person you love...
If you love them...
Treat them right...
Never make them feel guilty, because you are killing yourself - by hating them
Love is putting the one you love before anything else...
Love is making them feel easy whenever they are around you..
Love is a feeling which is unexplainable..
Love is LOVE....

last but not least, DO NOT DENY LOVE BECAUSE IT IS A FEELING THAT YOU CAN'T HAVE IT WITH ANY TOM, DICK AND HAIRY but that ONLY  PERSON

Monday, February 22, 2010

8

Was out with my deary friend...
If you say old flame never dies???
You are so wrong...
Flame's can die..
But friendship never dies...
Haha...

Guess you gotta learn how to handle all this flamy flamy thingy...
1 wrong step and you will be BURNT...
Learn to handle it properly...

Went for lunch...
Only flamy ate...
I ate lunch before that already...
So only drank 100 plus...
Rm 6.10.. i paid...

Went to 1Utama and QUEUED up to buy tickets...
All's well, ends well 2010.. 3.00pm show...
Should not have listened to flamy...
Should have bought the tickets in advance...
1U was hot.. queuing up time also was hot...
HOT HOT HOT.....

G, you can skip one movie already.. =)

Flamy paid RM 14....
Used student card mar...
Cheaper....
It was a little funny...
Not very funny...
hehe.....

went to K.T.Z to eat after that....
(no photo's again)
Flamy paid RM 30++

What i paid????
Parking, tol..
and lunch.... hehe..

Thank you flamy....
should go out more often lar...
wahaha.....

I know i said i'm gonna post your photo up here,
but no BLUETOOTH...
Sad sad....


** I'm happy that you are happy...
Because when you are happy, i know my life is better...=)

Sunday, February 21, 2010

4

Been really busy...
Visiting here, visiting there...
Going out here, Going out there..

No time to think about any other thing except for my assignment which I'm suppose to draft out by the 2nd of MARCH....
Haven't really wath all the CNY movie in the cinema...
Except for Tiger WooHoo....

Someone said, old flame never dies...
Going out with my deary tomorrow...
WHO???
Not mentioning it here...
The person should know who that person IS...
wahahaha...

Valentine day's movie was good...
Best friends becoming lover's was even good...
Haha...
Yeah, sometimes it is better that you date someone who shares anything and everything with you instead of getting to know someone all over again...
Love subway...CHICKEN TERIYAKI
My current favourite....

Went for MY name is KHAN...
"my name is Khan and I am not a terrorist,"
I would say it was'nt very touching or eye tearing movie..
But i would say, NEVER UNDERESTIMATE THE DISABLE'S...
They can be more intelligent that a normal person...

And the president Barak Obama (BO) is NOT HIM...
haha... they should have ask the REAL BO to act in it..
I know lar he always appear on TV, but nothing like ACTING the scene..
No fashion show (song)....

Went for foot massage...
Went for lunch, dinner...

**i hate it that i can't upload any picture.. Bluetooth not working...**

I know i told you not to remove the rings no matter what happens but ..................................

Saturday, February 20, 2010

It's either good or bad..

I'm not saying everything is going against me..
Just that this simply, little things is just so GOING AGAINST ME NOW..
Like, i was talking to this friend of mine, and i found out that,
THIS is not what i really want...

Oh yea..
Just imagine the guy you LOVE is in love with another girl when he is already with you..
he remembers anythign and everything about the other girl
and he just never though about this little tiny details about YOU..
He definetely is a JERK...
A BIG time JERK of the century...

Yeah... tell me about it....
He is a big LOSER...
SUCkzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz big TIME....

So exam in 3 months time...
i got no idea what i've been studying..
My BAD CLASS REP is a big SIAO..
He wrote on the assignment "send in date" as 2nd of MARCH right beside my name...
I hate him now....

I've not started anything...
Maybe next week i'll start drafting it out..
I really hate you now....

I'm so bloody tired now..
gonna sleep....
then going out in the night AGAIN....
yeah...

You can't hide forever...
Because "two finger on my eyes toward you" sign....

Thursday, February 18, 2010

CNY Part 2

Bluetooth still missing..
can't find it...
It will only be visible when i buy a new bluetooth.....

CNY 1st day was so normal lor....
It was VALENTINE too....
Never expected any gift because i never ask for one and because of..
i'm not celebrating valentine this year...

I celebrated CNY with my family...
haha.....
went over to my 2nd last aunty's place in the morning for our VEGETARIAN breakfast.. (no picture because of bluetooth missing)
I love her breakfast...
SO DELICIOUS.....

Guess that's the best vegetarian lar....
and i definitely love my aunt's mushroom with FATT CHOI....

Went over to my grandma's place in the afternoon....
Wow... it was so HOT...
I mean the weather....

Had to go home to take my bath before dinner which was at 5.30pm...
Early dinner....
Very early....
My sis asked... "this is dinner ar?? if later i hungry how???"
Haha.....

Played mahjong until 11.30pm...
I WON ler....
RM 10...
Yalar... not big money.. but SOMETHING...
We only played for rm 0.20....
I scared police will catch me ler...
haha.....

great fun lar..and only time for us to GAMBLE....\
Normal days mum sure shout 1....

2nd day was grandma's place too....
ang pau come come..
haha.....

Nothing great on the 2nd day...
boring.... =)

next part coming up... =)

CNY part 1

Fuh.....
This year's CNY was so so so boring...
Ang pau also so so so little...
Belum buka lar...
but red packet also little ler...

I hate it when they keep asking the same Q...
But it's okay...
I know that Q was coming....

Reunion was GOOD...
love the food...
"many kind of food in a pot"....
Dunno wad is the name...

We lighted the "KONG MING TANG"....
I made my sis and aunt write many many wishes for MYSELF....
1st one kinda went up and fell (it was written in English...
So maybe the chinese god dun't understand so they rejected half way...

2nd 1 was written in chinese...
Went up so fast and made a U turn to the CORRECT direction and terus naik..
haha
So look like next time i gotta write in chinese ler..
must practice the few words to write it every year....
wakakaka.....

I guess that night.. ONLY i was FULL...
the rest still felt a little hungry...
SO sorry, i saw no1 eating so I EAT LAR...

Haha....
Okay... i think i'll update till here 1st....
going out now...
Will be back in a while....

I WANT MORE AND MORE ANGPAU....
Nuffnang can give more ar????
haha... =)

Photo's will be up later.. bluetooth missing now... =)

Friday, February 12, 2010

Copy Pussy

Don't ask me what's with my title please...
Because i myself don't know...
Just felt like this is it.. this is my TITLE.....

Was browsing the net and was on one of the blogger's blog...
Nah.. He is not a real blogger as in blogging about any tom dick and harry thingy..
He just started his blog..
And all he writes is about how much he misses his gf..
He have got no idea why did his gf do that to him....

HaH... now some human might wonder and have a Q for me...
BUT I AM NOT GONNA ANSWER YOU...!!!!!!!

I know how it feels missing someone whom you know is not gonna come back..
But we all know nothing is SURE in life except for DEATH that no one can ever say NO to...

Why do we get angry??
Why do we move away??
Why do we say NO??
Why do we run away??
WHY??
WhY??
why??
wHy??

Guess it's human nature...
We tend to run away when we think we DON'T NEED IT..
but deep down, WE WANT IT....
tell me SWEETIE.... You want it right/??
I know you do....
So do I....

But.. but.. but... i choose to let it be...
Because i believe things will be right when the time is right...

Lets just be upfront about our feelings..
Don't hide it...
Though sometimes it might hurt knowing the girl/guy you love will never come back..
At least you know I SAID IT....

Watched Percy Jackson :The lightning thief..
Great movie...
Was laughing ni...
At first i thought it was gonna be a little boring..
But NAH... great... funny...

Tomorrow is gonna be another tiring day...
Morib in the morning..
Reunion dinner in my uncle's place at night...

And now that it's gonna be 13th of FEBRUARY in 3 hours time...
I'M MISSING YOU....
Oh my.... I love you babeh...
But i hope I'm not giving you any wrong signal here....

I just miss all those four 13th feb which we shared...
It's the fifth, but NO...I'll put a big . here....
I'm not gonna go on and on about this..
I know we need this and i am not saying anything here....

In memory of four 13th february.. <3

Thursday, February 11, 2010

Mandarin Palace

Met up with college mate around 6.30pm in Federeal Hotel where the restaurant is situated

 

  
Menu for the day

  
 The entrance of Federal Hotel..
  
 Restaurant..
I think the ingredients are for Yee Sang..
  
 Table of 10..

  
 One of the tembok there..
  
 Yee Sang.. Started for the day...
  

  
 Superb.. delicious...
  
 Shark fin soup with crab meat
  
 Roasted Crispy chicken...
Kinda dry towards the wing side.. but Nice...
  
 Tiger prawn with special sauce
  
 Stewed Dried oyster & Sea cucumber with mushroom and FATT CHOI
I likey.. nice nice big MUSHROOM
  
Fried Glutinous rice with wax meat (lap cheong)

  
 Sweetened Sea coconut with LEMON
  
 Kaya flower bread with
  
 College mates
*taken from KK's facebook photo*
 
Take 2..
* Take from KK's facebook photo*

Chinese tea per person was RM 2.50
Nuts per table was RM 7.50
1 set dinner was RM 588 per table...
Govt tax was 5%
Service charge was 10 %

Total was RM 1130.30

Food - 4/5 (many of them said NOT FILLING)
Price - 4/5 (if you are working it's okay.. if you are not, expensive ler)
Place - 4/5 (place looks good, feels good.. but got small flying ants..(is that what you call them) landing on your sauce and food)

** if you are a member of Federal Hotel, 1st table is 50% off..

Super Noodle House

At last....
I'm gonna upload picture from the CNY dinner with college mates..
But this post is gonna be about the restaurant me and Wing went to eat before the dinner

That day me and wing skiped Second class.. CIMA..
Went to Lowayat to eat porridge before shopping..

 
 The restaurant near the entrance...

  
 Soya Bean - RM 3.80

  
 Lo mai KAI - RM 5.50
(portion is so so so small) 
BUT delicious

 
  Plain Porridge- RM 3.50
(nice.. enough salty but it would have been more delicious if they served it with YAU CHA KUAI)

Plus with service charge of 10% and govt tax 5% it was RM 14.70
Place - 5/5
Food - 4/5
Price - 4/5

Next is Mandarin Palace dinner....

MY grammar SUCKS big time...

I'm very lazy to load dinner photo's into my lappie..
LAZY ME...>!!!!!!!!!
Maybe later okay....
So what i wanna say is. DON'T TELL ME SOMETHING WHICH I ALREADY KNOW ABOUT MYSELF...
Say lar something like "can i be your grammar teacher??" instead of telling me that my grammar always sucks..

Neway GUEST.. thank you for REMINDING ME... I'll try to get an ENGLISH teacher to teach me so that my grammar never OFFENDs you again.. But I'm not promising you about that grammar thingy..English teacher damn expensive lar...
AND wait.. why must i see into my grammar???
MY blog rite??
My own writing right??
haha... I'm seriously sarcastic...Because i already said FORGET ABOUT IT...!!!!!!!!! =P
 

I'll see if i can try to do something OKAY???
Thank you guest.. =)

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I'm so bloody hungry...
I wanna eat TOSAI....
Sudden urge lar...
I think I'm pregnant....
WTH??!!!!

Nah nah.. Just hungry nie....
You can't get pregnant by just KISSING rite???

Morning class was OKAY lar...
was so hungry in the morning too....
Ate two karipap... YEAH..
Don't tell me about this pantang thingy since I'm still in that pantang seafood and fried food thingy...

Today was Mr P.S class...
If you don't see him and just listen to his voice, you might find him Handsome kau kau lar...
Because he got this handsome kinda voice..
Haha...*don't comment on this*
I'm kinda siao... even the guy on the phone (mum's customer) also i will ask my mum if that guy is handsome or not...
Some kinda stupid hobby/ interest....

Balik nie i tido...
Such a good sleep lar....


If you think you are happy, PLEASE do not make my life sad... =)...

~~Adios....~~

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Come baby COME..

Haha.. my title sound so ...````~~~~~
No idea what to say..
Neway went out with the two small ones...
Went to times square...
And this time i make sure i try on the cloths before buying it...
Have been buying all unwanted , can't fit cloths...
It's either, my ass it too big..
or my shoulder is too LEBAR..
hate it.. hate it...
wish i was smaller size...

So donated all my other cloths to my sisters...
Watched Tooth Fairy earlier with both of them...
Bro was complaining since he was watching it for the second time...
Lucky dad said he's gonna sponsor Rm100 to buy the cloths...
So i can get back RM 100...
Yeah....

Tomorrow is class again.. and off for 1 week..
then I'm suppose to hand in my assignment on the 2nd of March..
BAD RAJ.... you had to do this to me...
I hate you....
Neway it's good, since I need to finish it early and not wait for last minute work which is gonna SUCK like hell....

Tonight is a good night...
Yeah Yeah.... !!!!

** im in a hurry... grammar sucks??? forget about it.. =)

Never Ever..

Was thinking of not updating my blog today..
But all of a sudden, i just felt like writing something...
Nothing to do with my dinner today..
But i definitely enjoyed it...

So what i wanna say is, if you decide to be SAD..
no one can help you but to just KNOW that you are sad..
If you are happy and smiling,
The only thing people around you can do, is share your happiness and smile with you..

Never ever blame someone else for making you sad,
BECAUSE you choose to be sad..
The person would have said or done anything just to make you sad..
DIRECTLY or probably INDIRECTLY...

But to be sad, YOU CHOOSED IT...
SO why blame others..??
You made the decision..
You choose the path....
So enjoy it and DO NOT BLAME OTHERS....

You fail to understand life...
So don't blame others...

Monday, February 8, 2010

G is my new LOVE...!!!!

G, my new LOVE.. a.k.a the best human on earth....

OKAY.... i was dared to put that as my title...(not that love part.. but that BEST word.. neway since i was dared, might as well write something BIG).... =P... (that's for you G)

So we went for movie today... thank you so much for accompanying me though i know you hate all this kiddos movie... HEY come on, you are a kiddo too.. just that you wanna act macho nie... wahaha.... AND puhlease... not with me lar... and thank you so much for letting me mess around with your hair.. haha...

I pity your hair lar... but it still looked good what.. that's for not putting your breaks properly...

Oh yeah oh yeah...thanks for the CHOCOLATE.. and LUNCH....
I think you should just save your chocolate money and buy me a more expensive LUNCH...

Next week okay... another MUM MUM session....
And G.. *#! ( i know you know what i mean )....=*)
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Tomorrow i gotta go back for classes...
Cannot skip class anymore or lecturer gonna think I'M a siao for skipping class...
After class is CNY dinner with college mates....
Having slight problem now....
That day all say confirm go.. now some backing up...
Money is a problem now...
Gonna be more expensive...
Hao.. sad sad case....

Next time if wanna do planning, i think just do among each other...
Dunnit announce...
Because **(*&^@#$%^&*()!@#$%^&*()(*&^(&%*^$*&(*&#@%$^&*&*
Haha....
I'm getting better now...
Waiting for my pearl white skin to come back...
at least before CNY which is another 6 days time...

Oh my.... I'm gonna miss 13th and 14th of my happy FEBRUARY....
It's okay... it's ookay....
Everything will be OKAY.....

Guess what..!!!!

Guess what, guess what.....
My nuffnang cheque is HERE...
Just got it earlier....

Will post about it later..
Kinda busy now... =)....
extra money... =)

Sunday, February 7, 2010

Proper post

Okay..
I haven't been really writing a proper post for the past two days...
Has been staying at home for the past 1 week..
Only last yesterday i steped out of the house..
Went for lunch.. VEGE...
No meat and seafood... sad sad...
Nevermind.. indian VEGE always taste nice...
RASAM.. yummm yummm...
hehe...with MORU....to cool my body...

Then went to temple in the night...
WHY the sudden??
Mr. Handsome ask me to follow him there..
So that was what i did...

Dinner which i only ate vege...with rice...
No photo...
Hai.... my blog has been photoless...
What to do... No photo...

Today all day at home...
Tomorrow's gonna be a busy day with MR nice...
haha... He's been so nice to me lar..
What to do.... Nicey Nicey....

Food today was fed by dad and bro...
Gembiranya....
My right arm is paining now...

Shall stop here..
Nights nights.....

SISTERS


A young wife sat on a sofa on a hot humid day,
drinking iced tea and visiting with her Mother. As
they talked about life, about marriage, about the
responsibilities of life and the obligations of
adulthood, the mother clinked the ice cubes in her
glass thoughtfully and turned a clear, sober glance
upon her daughter
'Don't forget your Sisters,' she advised, swirling
the tea leaves to the bottom of her glass. 'They'll
be more important as you get older. No matter how
much you love your husband, no matter how much you
love the children you may have, you are still going
to need Sisters. Remember to go places with them now
and then; do things with them.'
'Remember that 'Sisters' means ALL the women...
your girlfriends, your daughters, and all your other
women relatives too. 'You'll need other women. Women
always do.'
What a funny piece of advice!' the young woman
thought. Haven't I just gotten married?
Haven't I just joined the couple-world? I'm now a
married woman, for goodness sake! A grownup! Surely
my husband and the family we may start will be all I
need to make my life worthwhile!'
But she listened to her Mother.. She kept contact
with her Sisters and made more women friends each
year. As the years tumbled by, one after another,
she gradually came to understand that her Mom really
knew what she was talking about. As time and nature
work their changes and their mysteries upon a woman,
Sisters are the mainstays of her life.
After more than 50 years of living in this world,
here is what I've learned:
THIS SAYS IT ALL:
Time passes.
Life happens.
Distance separates.
Children grow up..
Jobs come and go..
Love waxes and wanes.
Men don't do what they're supposed to do.
Hearts break.
Parents die.
Colleagues forget favors.
Careers end.
BUT..........
Sisters are there, no matter how much time and how
many miles are
between you. A girl friend is never farther away
than needing her can reach.
When you have to walk that lonesome valley and you
have to walk it by yourself, the women in your life
will be on the valley's rim, cheering you on,
praying for you, pulling for you, intervening on
your behalf, and waiting with open arms at the
valley's end.
Sometimes, they will even break the rules and walk
beside you...Or come in and carry you out.
Girlfriends, daughters, granddaughters,
daughters-in-law, sisters, sisters-in-law, Mothers,
Grandmothers, aunties, nieces, cousins, and extended
family, all bless our life!
The world wouldn't be the same without women, and
neither would I. When we began this adventure called
womanhood, we had no idea of the incredible joys or
sorrows that lay ahead. Nor did we know how much we
would need each other.

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Have been so lazy to update on my shyts.. because i've got nothing to write.. haha
Might as well share some stories with every1....


Tomorrow is monday....
I'm just waiting to get back my skin...
just like some animal who changes skin...
haha... 


Enjoy the story  =)    

Saturday, February 6, 2010

Never let go of the CHANCE

What can I say about a girl I loved since I was ten... that I love the way she laughs at me when I commit mistakes, the way she fusses over silly things and even the way she cries over some sad silly late night show...

She was my best friend and I have known her since we were small. She knew all my secrets, which reveals my feelings for her, that I love her not only because she's pretty and smart but also the way she laughs at everything and the way she sees life and love. I could still remember the first time we met; I was five years old then. It was one windy afternoon having no one to play with except for my best friend, Troy. He and his family just moved out to a neighboring state at transfer because his father got promoted. And so I climbed up our tree house, I saw a moving truck coming down the street. I watched it approaching and noticed a family station wagon following it. It stopped in front of the house and out came a family. I was about to glance away when came out the loveliest girl I've ever seen.

She was four years old that time but then even at an early age she was a beauty. She had long curly hair, which reached almost to her waist. She had fair complexion and eyes which could make a man lose his heart into them. I continued to watch her when suddenly she looked up and saw me watching them in the tree house window. I was about to duck when she smiled and waved her hand. I waved back and then watched in amazement as I saw her running towards the tree house. So I went to the edge of the ladder and said, "Would you like to come up?" she answered, "May I?" So I help her climb up and when she reached the top she then turned to me and said, "By the way, my name's Sam, what's yours?" I answered, "My name is Christopher but then you can call me Chris." She smiled and said, "Well I like your name. Hey your tree house's neat!" then I replied, "Thanks! Troy and I made this. This used to be our hide out. We used to goof around, play ball and go biking together. He was my best friend and I kind of miss him you know." She smiled and said "I'm here now, we could do things you do with Troy and I could be your new best friend too. I never had a boy for a friend before so it could be exciting to have one. I could learn how to play ball and I have my bicycle so we could go biking together. Now how does that sound to you?" I smiled and said, "Well that sounds good enough." Then she held her hand and said, "It's a deal then!"

So that's how it started. So we became best friends and it was kind of strange at first for she was a girl and there are things which I was little bit hesitant to indulge her like catching frogs, swimming in the lake and climbing trees, but then she tried and did everything just to please me. There was even a time when she fell off the bike trying to catch up with me in a race we had and I was the one who bandaged her scraped knee. I could still remember the time when she hit the window of our neighbor when we were playing baseball and it was I who talked to Mr. Chambers and promised to pay for the damage, which meant having to loose a week's allowance. I remembered the time when I fell off the tree when I tried to rescue a little kitten because Sam was near to tears when she saw the helpless kitten trapped in a branch. I even fought with the tough guy when they teased Sam and made her cry and I ended up having a black eye and a bruised cheek. I remember Sam crying as she placed an ice bag over the damaged eye and later gave it a get-well kiss. I did everything to please her and gave everything her little heart desires.

The lake was our favorite hang out. We had our Saturday swim routine. We would pack food and later eat them under the big oak tree. There was a special branch in which the two of us could sit together and tell each other's dreams. She dreams of being a Ballerina and she knows my dream of becoming a doctor. She never laughs at my dreams and pursuits even if they were quite impossible. It made me like her even more.

As years went by, I noticed that my feelings towards her were slowly changing. Somehow, I thought it was just a simple crush case. But when I started thinking about her at night, dreaming of her and having the feeling of wanting to be with her all the time, I thought it was something different, something that made me feel strange, but then it was exhilarating feeling. It made me feel so alive. Whenever our hands touch, I could feel the tingling sensation in my spine. Once when we were at the lake having our Saturday swim routine and as I carried her towards the water edge, I had the feeling of not wanting to let go. I just wanted that moment to continue hoping it would never end. I then realized I was slowly falling in love with my best friend.

Many times I tried to deny the feeling for I was scared to imagine what would happen if ever I'd try to tell her how I feel about her. I was scared because she might think that I'm taking advantage of her and our friendship. I was afraid of losing her so I just kept my feeling hidden.

We reached the age of fifteen and I noticed that Sam grew lovelier each day. How my heart aches wherever I see boys glance her way. I want to punch their noses as I watch them talking to her giving compliments, flowers and chocolates. There were times when I watch her at a distance with mixed feelings of anger and hurt! Because it hurts so much to know that there were so many things I wanted to tell her but then I could not do so. There were so many presents which I long to give her but then I could not for she might see me only as a friend. I was also scared of letting her know how I feel about her as much as losing her.

Then one day, I just learned from a friend that she already had a boyfriend. At first, I tried to convince myself that it was just a rumor. Her boyfriend was Mark, a popular senior, who was the heartthrob of the campus. She, being the cheerleader was close to the basketball team to which Mark was the captain. When I saw them walking together at the parking lot that afternoon, I watched her with my heart slowly breaking into pieces. I saw her wave at me but I just pretended not to see her for I was scared that she might see in my eyes the pain I'm feeling inside because of seeing her with another guy. Those days that followed where the saddest days of my life. How my heart aches when I see her walk by me with him at her side. Every time we meet in hallways and I see him around her, there's a feeling inside me that makes me want to grab her away from him. How it hurts to see the girl I long possess was now owned by somebody else. That special smile I long for her to cast on me was now casted on him. As she passes by me she doesn't know that I whisper the words "God how I love you."

Then one faithful day they broke up. She came too me that evening crying on my shoulder. They had a big fight and it ended up with their break up. Mixed feelings were scaring me inside. I was happy because she was free and maybe I would have the chance of telling her my true feelings for her but then I was feeling so bad because she is crying her heart out just for him. At that time, I was not quite sure of what I wanted to do.

So we found ourselves doing what we did in old days with our Saturday swim routine, spending time in our tree house. We still enjoyed doing childish pranks for we still are both young at heart. So many chances I had for me to confess my feelings for her but still I couldn't bring myself to her for I was scared of losing her once more. I once lost her, now I could not bear of losing her again by telling her, "I love her". So I just kept my feelings even if it was bursting to be expressed from my aching heart.

It was a week from our JS Prom, we were seated at the branch of an oak tree drying ourselves after our afternoon swim when she said, "I was wondering Chris if you would like to be my partner?" It just got out of my wits for it was like a dream I never thought would happen. It took me awhile to answer her, "I thought there are so many boys who would die for you to be their partner?" So she turned away and quietly said, "Well I just thought I would like to spend that night with my best friend." Then she continued in a whisper I could barely hear, "Don't you want to die just like them to be my partner Chris?" I was too stunned to speak for it came close for me to blurt my feelings for her. We… we're silent for a while until I finally whispered, "I would be happy to be your partner Sam. "The she smiled and suddenly kissed my cheek. I could hardly contain the joy I felt that time. I saw her turned red and bowed her head. Suddenly she stood up and run towards the water saying, "Last one to reach the water treats to sundae fudge!”I ran slowed up so that I would lose which meant having to have her with me for another three hours or more.

Our Prom night came. I bought a new tuxedo and poured almost the entire bottle of perfume. I went to fetch Sam. Sam's mother greeted me and I went to sit in the living room waiting for her to come down. I was talking to her father when I heard her say, "How do I look?" I look up and saw her lovelier than ever in a strapless white dress with her hair flowing around her face. I stood up and opened my mouth but found out I could not find my voice. Then I got her hand shakily fastened the corsage around her wrist and whispered, "To the loveliest girl in the whole world." She then asked, "Is that true?" I nodded and she smiled and I smiled back then I turned to open the door for her. When we arrived at the gymnasium we hardly recognized our classmates. Gone were the jeans and T-shirts. They were replaced with tuxedos and gowns. Then I held out her hand bowed and said, "Would you give me the honor of your first dance?" She laughed and curtseyed. Then I led her to the dance floor. It was like a dream coming true, a moment of enchantment. I was there dancing with the only girl I ever loved. She was smiling up to me, as we were slowly moving in a smooth gliding motion. I found myself lost as I stared down to her sparkling eyes. The curls of her long hair were like waves enhancing her beautiful face. There were so many things I wanted to tell her that moment. I wanted to tell that she was the most beautiful girl that night. I wanted to tell her that she would always be the beacon of light in my darkness, but what I wanted to tell her the most was that I love her. I drew up all my courage and bent to whisper it in her ear but suddenly the music stopped and the magic was gone. I came close to telling her, but still haven't done it.

We walked towards the table and found ourselves surrounded by friends. I asked her if she wanted a drink, she nodded and so I went to get one. It took me a long time to get one and when I returned to our table, she was gone. I asked her friend, Katie, where she was but she told me that she doesn't know. So I went to search for her. As I was searching for her, I reached the garden. There I saw two silhouette figures outlined by the moon's silvery light. They were so close to each other that I could never describe the feeling I had when I recognized the white dress that Sam was wearing that night. I just turned and left the gymnasium.

Since that night, I avoided her. Many times she tried talking to me but I never gave her the chance to do so. I was afraid to hear her say that she loves Mark and not me. I would rather have left in ignorance of her true feelings for me than to hear from those dreaded words and feel my hope crush and my heart break. I didn't return her calls. I would not see her if she comes into our house. In the hallways, as she approaches I would go to another direction. It also hurts to do those things but then I thought that was the best way to forget her. Those months were tormenting but still I kept my pride.

The day of our graduation came. I was planning to take up medicine at a neighboring state and was to move out the next day. As the program ended, she approached me and handed me a rose. As she stared at me, there was something in her eyes I couldn't describe. There was sadness in them and when she smiled it wasn't the same smile she had. I wanted to hug her at that moment, tell her that I love her but then she turned and walked away from me.

So I moved out the next day as I planned. Luckily, I was accepted at the university. I concentrated with my studies but still I think of her at night. I was always wondering if she thinks of me too. I tried hard not to think of her but still I could not stop myself from loving her. Each achievement I have was done for her. I thought that if I will be successful one day, I would be able to tell her that I love her and by that time, I'm worthy of having her.

It was a year after our graduation when I decided to return home and see her again. I thought a year is too much for me not to see her and during the past year I felt like a person lost in the desert and only the sight of her could quench the thirst I have inside. As I got off the plane, I went home directly, desperate to get to her house desperate to see her, to hug her. Then I would tell her that I missed her and that I have loved her for a long time. This time I am determined to let her know my true feelings for her and I could not contain anymore the love I have for her. I reached their house; I saw her elder sister and I approached her. I smiled at her but I noticed she didn't smile back. I was confused for she used to be a cheerful lady just like my dear Sam. I then asked, "Hi Jen! I guess you're surprised why I'm here. Well I just want to visit you and I was also hoping to see Sam. I kind of miss her you know. Mmm… by the way have you seen her?" All I saw was sadness in her eyes as she replied quietly "Come follow me."

I was confused with the way she's acting but still I followed her. As we were walking, I was trying to indulge her in a conversation but she just answered my question briefly. Then I realized that she was leading me to the direction of the lake. It was still the same as I left it, with the same oak tree, Sam and I used to climb up. I smiled upon remembering the kiss Sam gave me when I agreed to be her partner. It's been one of the happiest days in my life and I realized that I missed Sam more than I thought. Then Jen stopped walking and pointed to the tree. She then whispered, "There's Sam."

I looked at where she was pointing and saw a newly dug tomb with the name of the girl I ever loved. I could not believe at what I saw and desperately tried convincing myself that this is all just a nightmare and I would soon wake up. I stared at Jenny in disbelief with her eyes searching for explanations and she slowly started saying, "It has been a week since she died. She died of Leukemia, but even though she was sick, she never stopped thinking about you. It was even your name she uttered before she died. She asked us to bury her here for she always regards this place as a place of LOVE. She said that this is where she had spent the happiest days and that was when she was with you. By the way, she also asked me to give you this." She handed me a parcel and with that she left.

I slowly opened the parcel and saw that it contained the dried orchid from the corsage I gave her for our prom. Then at the bottom I saw a letter. It was dated last month. I opened it with shaking hands and started reading........


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I know… by this time you read this letter I'm gone. I just want to tell you that I feel very lucky and thankful to God that I had a friend like you. I would also like you to know that I had left something inside, something I kept from you all these years. I love you Chris, not in a friendly way but as one who would feel like spending the rest of my life with. I have always loved you even from the start. I guess it just bloomed each day that's why the happiest days of my life was… when you were by my side. You just don't know how I dreamed of you at night and wake up in the morning and dream no more for you were with me. When you were away, I can't stop crying because I was afraid to think that you are with another girl. I just can't bear to see you with another girl. I just want you all to myself. I may sound selfish but that's how I feel.

Each time, you held me close to you, was like a dream coming true, for to be close to you and feel your heart beating next to mine was like heaven. So many things I did so that you will learn to love me but I NEVER saw a hint. I did everything to please you because I love you so much that I even tried to fool myself that you're in love with me too. So many nights I've cried when I think of myself unloved by you. Well you might think that what I'm saying are lies but, I tell you, my heart speaks the truth for I cannot bear telling a lie to the one I love. I know you might be thinking of Mark; but I just did that to make you jealous, to make you see me as a young woman, capable of loving and not as the little girl you used to play with. Sometimes I imagined that you were jealous and fooled myself that it was a sign that you feel something for me too. When Mark and I broke up and I came crying, I just did that to know… how you would react and with that I'll know that you love me too. But I failed for you didn't give me any clue. When our prom night came, you just don't know how happy I was when you handed me the corsage and saying that I was the loveliest girl in the whole world. While we were dancing, I wanted so desperately to hear you say that you love me too but you NEVER did. When Mark came and pleaded me to give him a second chance, I was scared that you might see us talking. I didn't want you to get the wrong impression so I told him we would talk in the garden. There I explained to him that it's you whom I really love.

What happened next was that I found you missing and later learned that you were searching for me, I just concluded that you saw us together. The next day, I tried to explain but then you never gave me a chance to do so. You continuously avoided me and never knew how much pain I've experienced that time. I felt the world crushing on me. In our Graduation day, when I approached you, I wanted to tell you… how much I loved you but I decided that I just couldn't do it. I could not bear to hear that all you feel for me is just brotherly hand of love. For I want you to love me as a woman and not as a girl or playmate. So I just turned away and left.

Now that saying I LOVE YOU might be too late, but still I want you to know that I will always love you and my heart has always been and will be yours alone.

P.S.: Think of me sometimes... and always remember that loving you was the best thing that ever happened in my life.
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I felt my tears falling as I folded the letter. I wanted to shout out to let her know that I love her, if not as much, but more than she did for me. I love her more than anything in this world. I knelt touching the soil of her grave and rain started to fall. I continued crying softly and whispered, "Oh God, send my love to heaven."
 
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This is so touching....
And i just wanna say that, if you love someone.. tell them about it..
Who cares about what happenes after that..
Most important is you told them how you felt..

If they can't be your other half..
They can at least be you close friend...
Never let go of the chance because you never know what will happen tomorrow...

I love you.... I miss you..
But I know we got a better path of life to take...
God is always there for you..
Nothing to worry about...

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